Behind my wall | Tom Kaulitz ENG

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057

bonus chapter because i love you

previously on behind my wall....

- It's going to be all right Anne...-Louis said and it wasn't the first time I'd cried to him about Tom

and it won't be the last...

In this chapter...

- Come on in, you need some hot chocolate and a lot of marshmellows- Louis says and I immediately go over to the sofa where I throw myself on the cushion and curl up- There you go- Louis comes over and sits down next to me and I immediately lay my head on his lap while he cuddles me- Anytime you want to talk, I'm here to listen, okay?

- I love him..." I say, drying my tears as I look at Louis. "I just wish loving him wasn't so complicated..." I say, sitting down.

- Is it complicated or do you make it complicated?" Louis says and I sigh looking at him.

- I don't even know anymore...-Falo hugging my legs then looking down at the floor- I knew that having sex with him was going to be a giant fuck-up

- "Did you have sex?" Louis asks and I nod. "Anne, when you have sex with someone you love... it's never just about sex, after you've had sex with him all the feelings of passion and love will come back for sure." Louis says and I nod.

- I know, but I missed him so much and... he's so beautiful with his braids, seeing that smile that takes me apart, the perfume that I can smell from a thousand meters away, that voice, his laugh, his look of admiration when he sees me, the beard that's starting to grow... it made me lose my mind and long for something that wasn't mine, but another woman's- I say, looking at Louis, who nods.

- If he heard you talking about him like that, he'd definitely go back to you- Louis says, making me laugh weakly, and the bigger man then puts his hand on my leg, caressing it without malice

- "I can't be crazy Louis... if he says he loves me why is he with her?" I say looking at him and this question was really haunting me.

- "He must have his reasons Anne, and maybe one day you'll find out." Louis says and I nod looking at him.

- "Yeah, maybe I will." I say looking at the bigger man and then the doorbell rings and the bigger man gets up to answer it.

- Is Anne there?" I look at the door to see Tom coming in and I frown.

- You can come in...-Louis says and Tom comes towards me.

- "Did you follow me?" I ask, looking at him and he nods.

- It was the first thing that crossed my mind." Tom says, looking into my eyes. "Can we talk?" Tom asks and I nod.

- I'm leaving- Louis says leaving the room and I cross my arms.

- Anne, when I said it was complicated... I meant that..." Tom gets excited as he speaks and I stare into his eyes.

- That...-I help the bigger man to keep talking

- I'm not with Heidi because I love her, or want her...or anything boyfriends do- Tom says and I frown again

- Why are you with her then?" I ask looking at him.

- "There are things behind it, I can't tell you before I talk to my lawyer because there's a confidentiality clause, but neither you, nor Heidi, nor Bill know what I've gotten myself into and why." Tom says and I'm completely intrigued.

- Secrecy clause....-I stare at the floor and the biggest man immediately holds my face, making me look at him.

- I just want you to know, you're not going to be and you're not the mistress, I'm eternally crazy about you Anne, you drive me crazy just with your smell- He says letting out a smile at the end and I immediately look at the bigger man's lips- You're like glass, hard...but fragile...very fragile- Tom says and I immediately look into his eyes

- Say I am...

- You're my girl- Tom interrupts me and I smile, looking into his eyes- I promise I'll... sort out my life, and if you don't want me to in the meantime, we don't have to have any contact, I'll prove to you that you're the woman I love- Tom says and I nod, looking into his eyes.

- Thank you for coming after me- I look at the biggest one

- I'd run deserts for you Anelise...