Behind my wall | Tom Kaulitz ENG

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previously on behind my wall...

- I'm not the only big thing in my body...-Tom says smiling sideways and I laugh in denial

in this chapter...

Another week had passed and Tom was finally home, he still had some bandages on but he was practically brand new, I was glad that the whole nightmare had passed, of course the tour had been postponed and would only take place next year, the boys needed to recover from the fear of the planes

- Anne I need to buy some new clothes- Ceci said looking at herself in the mirror, lifting up her blouse to show the mini belly that was showing

- Ceci you're only a month pregnant, you don't need clothes yet- I say looking at her who smiles at me

- I know, I just want an excuse to spend Bill's money- She says lying down on the bed- He said he'll pay for everything during the pregnancy- Ceci says and I laugh looking at her

- You're no good- I say looking at the little girl and then I hear the doorbell ring- Let me go- I say going downstairs towards the door.

As soon as I open it, my smile disappears.

- "Dad..." I say, looking at him, who immediately smiles when he sees me.

- Can I come in?" he asks and I say no.

- Just like you made me and my sister homeless, you're not welcome in our house- I say, looking at him- So no, you can't come in- I look at the bigger man who nods.

- "I'm sorry for what I put you and your sister through, and I really regret everything I did to you." He says, and I cross my arms and look at him.

- "Do you think I care about your regrets?" I say. "Do you know what Ceci and I went through when we had nowhere else to go? She was only fifteen years old, and she was despised by her own father who treated her like a tramp for something that wasn't even her fault, you never tried to understand our side, you only cared about your status and appearances in front of the people you thought deserved your attention- I say firmly, looking at him- But it was Ceci who needed attention, damn it? she loved you, admired you, and at her first mistake, which wasn't even her fault anyway, you threw her out on the street like an animal- I look at him.

- I made a mistake Anelise, I know I was a terrible father to both of you, I also mistreated you a lot, not just Cecilia, but you suffered too- He says looking into my eyes and I let out a weak laugh

- And who cares about me? I had to learn to be responsible and take care of my sister when I was fifteen, everything I did was to protect Ceci, which you should have done, and I was always seen as the villain, so don't pretend to care about me or how I felt all those years, you know... I thank God you kicked us out of the house, because then I could finally become an adult in my own time, and conquer everything from scratch without any trace of the despicable being who claims to be my father- I say staring into his eyes

- I'm sorry..." he says with watery eyes and I deny it.

- It's too late to apologize, because Anelise Scheibler Cooper doesn't exist anymore, now call me Anne Cooper, the woman who isn't your daughter anymore, you've been dead to me since the day you left us homeless- I look at him and then swallow dry- Don't look for me anymore, and don't come near Ceci- I close the door in his face and then take a deep breath- Son of a bitch- I grumble and go into the kitchen to get a glass of water.

TOM KAULITZ'S POV

I had left the studio and was heading home, this would be my last week with Heidi and I was very relieved that I would finally have Anne back, my Anne back, this fucking contract would be over and I could be free again and do whatever the fuck I wanted to do, I'm Tom Kaulitz

- Welcome Mr. Kaulitz- Maria, the housekeeper speaks to me when I enter the house and I smile.

- It's good to see you Maria- I leave my coat at the door and walk up the stairs to our room, I needed a nice relaxing bath and then to take care of my bandages.

As I walked down the corridor I noticed some clothes lying on the floor and I thought it was very strange, why were there clothes lying on the floor of the corridor?

I soon opened the bedroom door and the answer was there, Heidi and Louis... in bed together, and yes, they were having sex, just to be clear.

- Tom?" Heidi says and I nod at her, smiling.

- Hi babe, you don't have to worry, you can enjoy yourself, just pretend I'm not here- I say unbuttoning my pants to get into the shower- And you man, you like my ex-girlfriends don't you?- I say looking at Louis smiling and then leaning against the door while they got dressed.

- "You're not mad?" Heidi asks and I say no.

- "Wait, am I supposed to be mad?" I ask, looking directly at her.

- "Dude, she told me you guys had broken up- Louis says and I walk over to him and put my hand on his shoulder

- "Dude, relax, you actually did me a big favor," I say smiling.

- How is it?" Heidi asks and I smile looking at her.

- Girl, I don't give a shit who you have sex with, in fact I don't give a shit about anything to do with you, in fact... you just helped me- I said looking at her who was shocked

- "I don't understand, Tom..." Heidi says and I put my hands in front of my mouth.

- Let me explain that you're a bit stupid, aren't you?" I take a deep breath. "It was a lie" I say, smiling. "Me and you, it was all a lie, I only dated you because I got paid, it was a deal between my agency and yours, I just didn't kick your ass before because there was a lot of money involved, beautiful" I say, looking her in the eye.

- That can't be true- She says shocked and I nod

- Yes, it's very true - I say affirmatively - and you know what else is true - I say thoughtfully - You were right all along about Anne, I never stopped loving her, I love Anne and I never loved you, or what do you think? I only made fun of you because... I imagined myself fucking Anne the way we used to when I was a teenager- I say, smiling debauchedly at her- Dear Heidi... I say, tucking her hair behind her ear- You're not and you'll never be better than Anne, I hope you understand that- I say and the bigger girl immediately slaps me across the face and I take a deep breath and pick up my cell phone.

- You're shit Kaulitz- Heidi says and I smile

- And...send- I send a post on Twitter with all the counter invoices for the VS cosmetics line that Heidi herself had forged.

- "Shit Heidi... is this true?" Louis says looking at his cell phone.

- Give it to me- She says, taking the phone and I smile and giggle at her- Have you lost your mind Tom- Heidi says, looking at me.

- "I told you that if you hit me again I'd fuck up your career." I say looking at her who then runs out of the room and I burst out laughing looking at Louis.

- "Dude, I'm really sorry, I didn't know that..." I interrupt him.

- If you were in bed with Anne, I'd finish you off, but Heidi... ah... she's all yours- I pat him on the back and walk into the bathroom- Are you going to take a shower with me- I ask looking at him

- No, no. He says

- Then get out - I say, closing the door and stepping into the shower.