Behind my wall | Tom Kaulitz ENG

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previously on behind my wall....

Did you feel the same way I did last night?" Tom asks and I take a deep breath looking at the biggest

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in this chapter....

- Miss Cooper- Marta enters the room again and I turn to her- Suzy asked me to let you know that your photo shoot has been canceled, you have the day off- Marta says and I nod.

- Right, thanks Marta- I say looking at her and soon Bill appears in the room again.

- Tom, we need to go to the studio, Silas is pissed off about something- Bill says and Tom takes a deep breath.

- Okay- Tom says leaving the room and I quickly flop down on the bed looking at the ceiling thinking about everything that had happened.

Last night I felt like I was sixteen and still completely in love with Tom, honestly? I missed having Tom in my sheets in the morning, but of course I couldn't let him know, yet...

I soon got up and went into the bathroom to have a nice shower, I needed to get rid of the smell of sex that was impregnated in my nose with a nice shower, while I showered and lathered myself up with soap I kept remembering Tom's touches on my skin, his touches were delicate but firm, I loved being touched by him, any touch made me want him as quickly as possible, the next thing I knew I had my hand on my intimate area massaging it, remembering all the touches last night, all the kisses, moans, gasps...everything....

- Tom...-I gasp his name in the shower and then come to my senses and stop touching myself, throwing my face into the water- Idiot idiot idiot....- I splutter, going back to taking my shower as normal.

After that fuck with Tom, it would be impossible to get him out of my mind...

POV'S TOM KAULITZ

As soon as I arrived at the agency with my brother, I went straight to Silas's office. When I arrived, he threw down the vogue magazine where Anne and I were on the cover and I sat down, looking at him.

- Surprise...-I say looking at the biggest one

- "What the fuck was that all about now, Kaulitz?" Silas asks me and I put my hand to my face and take a deep breath.

- What? I can't take pictures with other models? That wasn't in the contract...-I glare at him and then smile sideways.

- "Do you think I'm joking with you?" Silas asks, looking seriously into my eyes. "That fucking contract is worth half a million euros, do you want to lose all that?" Silas asks and I immediately get upset.

- "I've already lost the love of my life because of this fucking money and career, and if I have the chance to get her back... fuck that money." I say, getting up and heading for the door.

- Kaulitz!" he calls out to me and I turn and look at him. "If you fuck up this contract... it's all over between the band." Silas says and I smile.

- Let me tell you something Silas, do you know who we are? We're the biggest rock band in Germany and internationally, so let me make one thing very clear, the band...doesn't need you, you need the band to have food in your lousy house- I say and then blink looking at him- Are we clear?- I smile and then walk out of his room slamming the door.

- Hey Tom, what did he want?" Bill asks me and I roll my eyes.

- To fill up my fucking bag as usual- I say, walking towards my car outside and getting into it, starting it and driving towards my house.

When I arrived, I saw Heidi sitting on the sofa staring at the magazine and I knew I was in for my third outburst of the day.

- Look who decided to show up....-Heidi says when she sees me and I go towards her- Have you seen this?- She says showing me the magazine and I sign it

- I saw it, so?" I asked, sitting down and looking at her.

- So? I lost the chance to be on the cover of Vogue because of you- Heidi says and I let out a weak laugh

- My fault?

- "Yours?" she says and I burst into laughter, heading for the kitchen. Thanks to your whim of saving Anelise Cooper's beautiful maiden, I didn't make this year's cover, again- Heidi says and I quickly open the fridge and grab a gin and tonic, I'm going to need it to put up with this outburst.

- It's not my fault you're not as interesting as Anelise, Heidi- I sip my gin and look at her.

- What's your problem Tom?" she asks coming closer to me. "Since yesterday you've been giving me these hints, you're having an affair with her?" Heidi asks and I laugh looking at her.

- "Now if I tell the truth to your face, I'm having an affair....uau-" I say, looking at the smaller girl who takes a deep breath.

- "Where did you spend the night?" Heidi asks and I look at her seriously.

- At Anne's house- I'm honest with her

- "Did you two sleep together?" Heidi asks apprehensively and I finish the can of gin.

- "No, I just made sure that a drunk woman got home really well." And then honesty went down the drain.

- "You could have at least said you were going to sleep at your ex's house," Heidi says and I walk off towards the stairs to take a shower.

- "Can you take care of your self-esteem and stop picking on Anne for a while?" I say, looking at her who immediately slaps me in the face and I smile, running my tongue along the inside of my cheek.

- Idiot!" Heidi says and I grab her arm and look seriously into her eyes.

- "If you hit me again, I'll fuck up your career, understand?" I say, looking deep into her eyes.