𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙰𝚛𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝

Friends

Of course I spent the last days thinking about the arrangement that Jason suggested. Also I started a research about Scarlett Johansson and it seems like she could really be a help to improve my PR.

Which I however still don't understand is, why I would need to marry her instead of just hanging out and being public friends.

The day my album will get published comes closer, still the streams of my latest single stay relatively at bay. Can't be me, seriously considering to come back to Jason's idea.

"You could agree to compromises." Sarah, who was the first one to eventually get more and more into the arrangement idea, says nonchalantly and shrugs.

I just look at her questioningly and so she continues, "what I'm saying is that one compromise could be, that you're the total It-couple on the streets and events. But when it comes to your privacy, you can part ways and do whatever else without each other."

"Do you really think that this compromise makes me feel better now? Actually it sounds like we'd both give each other a horrible time when in privacy again." I state, unconvinced and frown a little.

My manager immediately shakes her head and stands up from the couch. "My my, how would you give each other the hell, if you'd just part ways and come together for events and public stuff?" And with that, Sarah got me thinking once again.

"Mh, right. So let's say I'll make this compromise and Jason agrees, how would you expect that woman and I to get along with each other if we never spend real time together?" I question back, mocking Sarah's words. She sighs and rolls her eyes.

"Y/n you don't get to fight me with my own weapons." Sarah grumbles, while she sits on the edge of my desk and faces me.

"All I want is for you to be comfortable if we really consider to do such a big thing."

"Yeah so that's why I'm thinking... why marrying her if we could just be friends like real public friends?" I throw in, again.

"This is not what blows people's minds. Friends. Friends. Everyone can be friends, but tell me who, who's gone for two years and comes back married?!" Sarah beams with conviction and excitement, as her hands fly around herself like crazy.

"Friends. Y/n, friends. You've had friends before and you still have friends now. But, being married, that is what blows minds." She goes on with wide eyes and penetrant tone, while I just let her live it out.

Only when I'm sure that Sarah's done glowing, I softly speak up. "I understand what you mean, still this is too big for me."

"Look, it's okay that you're hesitant about this all and I completely understand you. But, maybe this marriage could be limited. Once your PR is on top again, we can slowly make this marriage trip and fall and break." My manager explains in a rather suggesting manner, making me gasp quietly.

"Right now, Sarah, this is too much for me. I feel overwhelmed and I would like to continue working on my album for now. Please give me some space and we'll catch up on this topic later again, okay?" I calmly but sternly speak, spinning my chair that I face my mixing table instead of Sarah.

I only notice a deep sigh of hers and hear her jump off my desk, before I head her footsteps that get more and more quiet.

"I understand Y/n. Take your time, but keep in mind that the release day is close." She softly says, I can hear her smile through her words and then the door opens and closes.

I sigh in relief and lean back into my chair, closing my eyes and let everything sink in.

This is me, close to get my therapist involved again, rather before I black out. I shake my head and sit back upright, grabbing my pen and a notebook.