𝐒𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

𝐒𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬. 𝟏𝟑

It was getting more late and John B and Enola were still cuddling. Overtime the silence made Enola sink into her dark thoughts. It made her feel unsettled. And she thought about everything. How her twin sister actually drinks away her problems sometimes, how free spirited she is.. how life could be so easy and bright for someone half the time. She wondered how Sarah felt with all of this. To be liked a lot, to stand out in your own free time, to be favorited by a parent, to hate family fights but can't stand to always really face things. Enola wonders.

She thought about how had all these years may have been deep down for Rafe. Maybe he hadn't realized for so long because it all started from when he was young. She felt like she would be incredibly angry if she were him. And it pains her that she couldn't do much to make a change of it all. But she's very glad to have been so close to Rafe. Because it wasn't always so easy to be for anyone. But she really is sad because one day it'll just shoot her that Rafe is gone and at college and who knows what may come next. Will he forget the family completely? Enola Wonders.

She wondered why boys took Sarah over her everytime if they look similar. What made her so "bad" so "useless". But then she looked to John B and forgot all of that because he's sticking around. She never thought this day would come and she still can't fully grasp onto it. She thinks about her place in the world a lot. What she has in store for it. If she's really so special or not. She doesn't exactly have things planned out, but now she wants to. Because in this moment of silence she's realized her siblings are fully okay now but she isn't deep down. And Wheezie is always carefree for the most part.

It's like everyone's feeling fun and she's dying inside. She could have a fun party, fun siblings, a great best friend, and a boyfriend. But she hadn't took much time for herself to fully feel.

"Babe.. I'm gonna go outside.. I need fresh air", Enola said sitting up slowly. "Want me to go", John B asked as he touched her hand. "Oh no don't worry I'll be back in a minute", Enola said with a smile before walking out.

Usually when people say that, a minute turns into a million years because they died. Let's just hope we can't say the same for Enola. A cup of alcohol can go a long way or not.

JJ and Rhyme were being sprayed with cold water by Pope as Kie was laughing. Other Pogues were sitting by a fire and eating s'mores, while others were dancing and swaying on each other. Enola then spotted the drinks and not many people were by it. She spotted some beer and decided to grab one and soon after one she took another and two more. After every sip, she felt more in tune with the no other sound but the beat of the music outside and everything else became mumbled. She couldn't feel much then and just wanted to sit there. But this feeling slighty scared her because she barely felt as if she had control, but she's longed for control in her subconscious mind.

She then grabbed onto something and bumped into some people before stumbling back to John B's room before she fell to the floor crying. "I'm drunk John B.. I'm drunk.. I'm so sorr..sorry.. help me.. please.. help..I'm scared.. I can't.. I care too much.. I'll always care to much.. there's no way out.. oh help..".

Enola continued panicking as John B quickly took her to the bathroom to dose her in some cold water. As Enola became more with reality. She caught her breath and stopped crying as she wiped under her eyes. The mascara was drowning upon her face like a stream. "Forgive me.... forgive me", Enola said calmly.

"Don't apologize.. just.. just tell me about it when you're ready.. I'm feeling tired.. you can stay the night if you want.. it's probably better if you do..", John B said as he led me back to his bed. "How will the party end..", Enola asked.

"Kie, Pope, and JJ have it uncovered. Let's just sleep okay", John B said as he pulled up the covers over them and cuddled Enola. "Mhm, okay", Enola said as she rested her head close to John B's chest before closing her eyes and comfortably drifting off to sleep.