𝐒𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

𝐒𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬. 𝟐𝟏

It was in the afternoon and I was sitting on the porch of Roses beach house.  I didn't talk to anyone and I only did my homework and ate popcorn chicken with French fries. The ketchup was truly a blessing to my mouth.

My phone was blowing up on the other hand because of John B. But I'm still mad at him. I'm not some girl who throws herself at people because she vulnerable. I'm a hurt girl who finds comfort in her loving boyfriend. That's what it is. But his dumbass took the complete wrong idea.. how could he.. ugh.. I do hate him right now. It's not even funny.

I heard footsteps approach me and I knew it was Sarah. Although I wish it were Rafe.. I know he's not even here. But I miss him so much. He was the man of the house in my opinion...

"I'm worried about you.. did John B do something?", Sarah asked as she sat next to me. "Yeah.. he did.. at such a bad time he does.. it's unbelievable", I said as I then went onto say what happened and I found my heart beating faster and my body growing hot as I was so angry.

"Oh my gosh.. he shouldn't have said that. He's so stupid.. god.. boys sometimes you know..", Sarah said as I nodded in agreement. "But also.. maybe he didn't intentionally say it to hurt you. I mean you're a broken record so he was probably just trying his best to word things in such harsh circumstances and of course failed miserably", Sarah said with a slight chuckle as I looked at her. "Broken record? Is that like what you think of me completely", I asked.

"Of course not. It's just sometimes that's all. But aren't we all", Sarah said with a smile as nodded in slight annoyance. I just wish the world would shut the fuck up for a bit.

"I'm gonna go to my room.. I'm pissed off thank you very much", I said as I grabbed my stuff and stormed off inside as Sarah looked at me in confusion. "Great.. I guess I pulled a John B there..", Sarah said while flopping her arms to her side.

***

It was now dark out and I was taking a nice shower. I hadn't had many thoughts on my mind which was great. All I focused on was the hot water dripping down my body and taking away the stress and shivers.

I feel like night showers are the best because you go to bed feeling refreshed and clean. Then you sleep like a baby. Maybe that'll clear my headspace to face school tomorrow and John B.. because I'm not answering his calls or text still.

And maybe a shower will help before that court day. I can't believe I have to face my father again. But.. maybe Rafe can come home and help.. I mean he's witnessed my dad's aggression and he's even experienced it. I hope Rose gets the idea to reach out to him about that.

I haven't bothered to touch my phone for anything. I just feel so Irritated typing In the password and I'm not sure why...

I walked out the bathroom in a towel and opened the door to my room. I then jumped as I saw my father but I then rubbed my eyes and it was only a stupid hallucination. I hate ptsd. I mean what if my argument with John B was a hallucination? Well no shit it wasn't but I wish it was... I miss him like hell.. maybe it was all a misunderstanding.. I'll apologize.

***

Now the next day and I walked into school by myself. Some people were looking at me making me so aggravated. So I gave them the finger.

Eventually I saw JJ and Kie talking to each other and Rhyme was getting snacks from the vending machine.

I then spotted John B. Alone.. and he looked sad. My god.. he really didn't mean to hurt me..