Sweet Rivalry : From Bitter Enemies To Sweet Lovers (BXB)

20- Trapped

I looked around me, everyone else seemed so happy with their partners. They were genuinely in love, and it made me doubt my own relationship with Tim.

Is this really love? I kept questioning myself, denying the truth that he might just be using me for fun. Feeling insecure, I decided to open up to Nathan about Tim's actions. As we delved into the conversation, my thoughts were in turmoil, unsure of what the future held for me.

Me: Nathan I guess something is odd in my relationship with Tim. I'm kind of confused. I don't know if he loves me or he is just using me to show off.

Nathan: That wouldn't be the case. You are thinking too much. He genuinely loves you. Look at him he is so in love with you. When you argues sometime it feels you are loosing each other's grip. But that's isn't the case.

Nathan left me in all sort of worries and questions. I blamed myself,

I'm stupid. I'm thinking way too much. Yes, Tim loves me. He is right. They are right. I'm wrong. My thoughts are just messed up. Everything is okay.

But the other half was trying to deny these thoughts..

Nathan and Nora were happy as they got me and Tim dating from their group. It was like we had our own little group, two couples who understood each other. The four of us would go out together, creating unforgettable memories.

But was that really the case? I asked myself.

I was bathing and left my phone on charge, I forgot to log off my I*sta and the door of the room was open.

That day, my mother came to my room to change bedsheets and unfortunately she read my chats with Tim. She told dad about it.

As I stepped out of the bathroom, I sensed a heavy tension in the air. My parents asked me to come downstairs.

My heart started racing as I made my way downstairs for the impending talk. The atmosphere seemed charged with seriousness, each step feeling heavier than the last. When I entered the room, my dad's stern expression sent a shiver down my spine.

His voice held a weight of concern as he spoke, demanding my attention,

Dad: Who is Tim?

I was shocked, why is he asking about Tim? I replied,

Me: He is just a friend.

Dad threw my phone at me. Whereas my mom was looking disappointed in me,

Dad: You sure?

Me: I'm dating Tim. He is a nice guy. We are in the same class but our sections are different. He cares about me, he loves me dad. And so am I.

Dad: Shut up!

Me: Dad we do really love each other.

Dad: HE IS A GUY!!

Me: So what dad??? Can't a boy love another boy?? Don't be homophobic dad!! It isn't about our sex!!

Mom: Shhhh! Don't argue!

Me: But mom we are Happy with each other. We do really love each other.

Dad: It's okay it happens. Kids your age tend to make mistakes.

Me: Tim isn't a mistake dad!!

Dad: YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DATE A BOY!! YOU ARE A BOY YOURSELF FIND YOURSELF A GIRL!! WHAT'S HARD IN THIS??

Me: Dad!! It's not in my control. I like guys and girls both. After dating Tim I realised I love being around guys too. I like guys too dad!! I love guys!!

SMACK!

That slap, it struck deep within me.In that moment, I felt unheard, misunderstood by everyone around me.

My dad's shouts echoed in my ears, drowning out my voice. He demanded that I stop hanging out with Tim, but I stood there, feeling utterly lost.

Questions flooded my mind: Is it wrong to love guys? Am I abnormal? Do I have some kind of disease? Maybe my presence itself is wrong. I felt like I shouldn't even exist.

The weight of those thoughts choked me, rendering me speechless. I couldn't express all that I wanted to say; my words were trapped in my throat.

The room felt suffocating, as if the walls were closing in on me, trapping me in a whirlwind of confusion and self-doubt. I ran away, seeking solace in the confines of my room. The pain was unbearable, tearing at my heart, leaving me shattered and alone.

The night felt endless as I cried, my heartache consuming me, leaving me feeling lost, rejected, and utterly alone.

My phone was on the floor of the living room. I dared not to go out and pick it. But I really wanted to talk with someone as thoughts were eating me from the inside. I wanted to inform Tim at least that I wouldn't be able to come online tonight. And I'm sorry about that but I couldn't text him.

The next morning when I went to school. I tried to find Tim everywhere but he was nowhere to be found. I searched and searched and searched. He wasn't picking my calls either. Then I remembered he would have been in the music room.

I hurriedly climbed the stairs and opened the door. There he was...

I hugged him as soon as I saw him. But he coldly pushed me away. Saying,

Tim: What the heck do you want? I thought you died yesterday!! You didn't respond to any of my texts!!

Me: I can explain. I'm sorry about tha-

Tim: Just leave. You don't even have time for me.

Me: I did reply to you, Today as the first thing in the morning. But you haven't seen those. So, I came here-

Tim: Oh wow don't blame me for ignoring you! It was you who ignored me first.

Me: That's not true. I had my reasons.

Tim: Just go away. Don't show me your face. Leave me!

I felt heartache... I wanted to keep him by my side. That's why I fought with my family yesterday but for him none of those matters? I asked with no expectations.

Me: If I disappear one day would you care?

Tim stopped and looked in my way he came to me and grabbed my shoulders. The grip was so tight that I could feel his fingers.

Tim: You cannot just disappear like that babe.

He whispered right into my ears making me tremble from his voice,

Tim: You need my permission for that. You cannot do anything like that.

He looked in my eyes as if he was staring right into my soul and continued,

Tim: I love you my lovely Neo.

Then he left..

Scary.. scary it was so scary!!! I screamed within myself. His expressions his face Everything was scary. I got chills. My heart was going crazy. My body was shivering.. I asked Myself, "What was that?"