Looking to belong

5

"Ariana where the hell have you been?!"

"I could ask you the same thing".

"Don't you get smart with me, Tell me where the hell you were at this time in the evening!!! I thought we had agreed for you to stay put when I wasn't home!"

"I went out for a walk, And besides that it i even agreed to stay in here while you weren't home I would barley even see outside this house then".

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?! Do you not want me to care about you anymore??".

"You know what that means Dad, You can't just show up whenever you want and pretend that you care about me".

"Pretend? are you serious right now Ariana.
What the hell happened to the sweet little girl i used to know"..

"Nothing happened to her, You just weren't around to even get to know who I am."

When my dad heard me say that, He looked even more furious then before.

"Oh well i can clearly see what you are now"

He looked me up and down.

"A dissapointment." he spat out.

I ignored that comment as best as I could, I was really close to loosing it with him now if he didnt just shut his trap.

He looked me up and down again.

"And what the hell are you doing with those clothes on? Gosh its good that your mother isn't here to see this, She would be horrified with the way you ended up".

That was it. Thats what done it for me. After my mom died I did everything to make her proud. I tried my best in school, helped out with charities, did things that she never got a chance to do even. And after hearing my own father say that to me, I lost it.

"What the fuck did you just say to me?!
She wouldn't be horrified with me. She would be horrified with YOU. Imagine what she would think of you leaving your own daughter living by herself for months on end just so you can go on your so called business trips which actually aren't even for your fucking job half the time."

"Ohh your a little shit you know that? I work my ass off for you on those business trips you know that?"

"Don't fucking dare lie to my face, You work your ass off doing what? Sleeping with random women you find on the street? Yeah I don't think that helps us out does it".

My dads face went white.

"Ariana i can explai-".

"Explain what? There's nothing to explain you can just act all nice to me now just because you found out that you're own daughter knows what your doing, Imagine what mom would think of you".

My dad steps closer to me, His eyebrows narrowing down at me angrily.

"Don't. You. Dare."

"What? huh, Tell you the truth? You know im fucking right".

"I SAID DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE TALK TO ME LIKE THAT YOU LITTLE-".

That's when I fell to the floor, Hitting my face against a cupboard as I fell.

He hit me, My own father hit me across the face.. He couldn't handle the truth.

I got up off the floor not listening to whatever names my dad was calling me and I ran out of my house as fast as I ever could.

Blood was streaming down my face as I ran down the street of my neighbourhood.

No one was out here to help, It was late in the night by now. I was alone. Being alone aint all that bad since im used to it but this time it finally hit me.

I was truly alone. I had nobody to call, nobody to talk to about anything that had happened to me, nowhere to stay, no one to trust.

All i had was myself.

I finally had stopped running, I didn't know where I was because my vision had gone blurry all of a sudden. Maybe it was from hitting my head off that damn cupboard.

I wasn't really thinking about that though, I was more worried about where the hell I was supposed to go. I couldn't focus at all because my head was pounding and my vision got even worse.

Thud

I fell to the floor

I was laying there for quite a while because i couldn't manage to get up.

I kept falling in and out of sleep but then I heard some voices near me.

It sounded like they were coming closer to me.

"Holy shit! look at the girl!".

"Oh my god its Aria!!"

"Cmon Steve we need to help her get outta here".

~

I wake up in a room with blankets wrapped around me, It was pretty dark since the curtains were closed.

I was about to get out of bed so that I could turn on a light to see where the hell I was, But I was stopped by a voice behind me.

"Easy now go back to sleep, you're too hurt to be walkin around".

I turn around. "Darry? Where am I?".

"You're in Ponyboys old bedroom, Now go back and get rest for a few more hours, You can ask questions in the morning".

I lay back down to fall back asleep, Trying not to think about what had happened.
That didn't work though. I woke up an hour later crying into my pillow. I must have had a nightmare..

When i looked up i saw Ponyboy and Johnny.

They both looked stunned.

"Hey guys".

"Woah Aria are you alright?".

"Yeah man what happened?"

They both stood there waiting for an explanation...
How was I supposed to explain to them that my dad did this to me..

"I don't wanna talk about it"..

Ponyboy was about to say something else but Johnny stopped him.

"That's okay Aria, You can talk to us when you're ready".

Johnny then pulled Ponyboy out of the room and he gave me a sorry look.

I got out of bed eventually and went into the bathroom to try to clean the blood off of my shirt.

When I looked in the mirror I noticed that the cuts on my face were clean.

I wonder who brought me back here.
And I especially wondered what the others were going to think when they saw me like this.

After attempting to get the blood stains out of my shirt, which it didn't really work..I made my way downstairs slowly.