BROKEN BUT HEALING

Giving up

It took 2 hours for me to reach the city area , by walking , & when i arrived I took a  taxi and drove off to my residence . There wasn't a single sec where I didn't think of the incident, the look on her face her emotionless eyes , . But again I said to myself not to think of so much. ' stop it Ann, your brain will explode and stop functioning if you think this much ' .

" Sir , how much time will you take to drive me to the area?"
I asked the driver.

"At least, one and a half hours?" .
He replied.

" Okay ,.. I'll rest a little. Will you wake me up if we arrive?"
I asked.

" Sure mam. "
He said smiling.

" but .......What if you kidnapped me , and took me somewhere?"
I asked, not trusting him.

" Haha, Am sorry if i looked creepy to you , but trust me I'm married and have a daughter who is just 3 years old now , but if you still don't believe me you can talk to my manager ,.. the number is ..... "

After assuring myself that he's an honest  person, i let it slide and ask for my forgiveness if he felt bad for my behaviour.

" No , that's alright. I really appreciate your assurance, other girls should learn something from you ... it's your right to ask anything if you aren't comfortable. "
  I smiled and after some minutes sleep took over me . And i slept .. Till I reach my destination.

" Excuse me .. ?, Mam ??. , Excuse me??., Mam mam !.,"
I woke up startled when I heard a loud honking sound .

"Ohh we arrived ? "
I said , looking out of the window.

" Yes mam . "
He said .

" Ohh thank you,. "

And I paid my money and was off to my house . It's already 8 and I haven't eaten anything since afternoon, so i stopped near the Bar , thinking i should go or not , I had a lil headache from before let's get drunk tonight.  My heart is filled with broken glasses, let's fill them with some alcohol even if they are shattered.

                                                  
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"I don't like beingggggg around drr-unk people "
she said to the one standing in front of her .

" But , you yourself are drunk Mam "
the bartender replied.

" Shut up !!!., I'm not drunk "
she said with her eyes wide showing some seriousness .
" Here pour me some moreeee shots of Vod_haka " 

she said in a slurry way , due to the amount of liquor she was taking . her brain was now banging in her skull. Grabbing her head in both of her hands she tried claiming it down , and waited for her another shot to be served. Thinking it might at least ease her pain  physical , emotional and mental pain .

" But, you already are drunk mam, and it's vodka not Vod_haka .. " Said the bartender refusing to serve her more .

" I know ...... & Who said I'm drunk ?  , see am all in my sense serve me.. and your duty is to serve not to oblige mind that ???"
She said acting all sober . The bartender just sighs and serves her some more.

After some time.

" Why are you crying now ?? , I did serve you how much you needed. "
He asked her.

"Aniya , it's not you ..!! Am crying because I'm sad  "
(No) she said.

" Aniya ??. Who is she ?. And I know people cry when they're sad "
He replied.