Legally Feral

Chapter 25 Life and Death

*Vague memories and smell envolped me in the feeling of tasting my first wild meal. My first kill and the feeling of the hunt. I could smell the wild around me but I felt so cold. Something I had never felt before. I was never cold in my entire life and yet I was cold now. I felt so alone as the memories of my past left me. Older more distant and perhaps once lost memories surfaced. I could hear the voice of a woman singing a lullaby and murmuring words too quite for me to catch. Somehow this made me feel sad. I then heard screams echo around me and the lullaby once sung and the arms wrapped around me suddenly disappeared and I was floating in darkness more suffocating and lonely than I had ever felt. This wasn't my normal blindness this blindness was something I had only ever felt a handful of times in my life and I don't even know where it came from... Betrayal hatred and abandonment.*

(Alaxander prov)

*I watched as my mate suddenly slumped forward and fell into my arms. Her eyes were closed and her breathing became shallow.*

"Mom call the pack doctor something is wrong!"

*I cupped my mates tiny face in my hands and she was flashing from hot to cold in seconds. She looked so sick! Just a moment ago she was going about searching for raw meat buried in the house and the next without warning she is so sick!*

"Alaxander Zander is here."

"Let me see her."

*I didn't want to let my mate go but I had to if she was to be helped. Zander got a flashlight out and shined it in her eyes and he had a frown on his face.*

"Alpha what was she doing before you sent for me?"

"She was looking for some meat she had buried and she found it. She was also complaining about needing her bandages changed because her feet were getting hot."

"Can I see the meat?"

*I grabbed the rancid and decaying meat and gave it to Zander.*

"Has she eaten any of it?"

"No none, even tho she has gotten better at not eating rancid food, she still does but it never affects her."

"It shouldn't, she has been eating it her whole life so she has an immune system fare stronger than ours. She shouldn't be getting this sick because of that immune system. Let me check her feet next."

*I was growing more and more impatient the longer Zander took trying to find out what was wrong the more my little mate became sicklier.Zander removed the bandages after cutting them off and his face went white.*

"Zander how long has that wound been healed up?"

"Her wound? It has always been open why...."

*I trailed off when I looked at my mates feet. They were completely healed over and they weren't swollen.*

"Remember when I told you if her wound healed over by some miracle then her life would be in danger?"

"Ye..yeah."

*The world suddenly began to spin with the realization of what I was being told.*

"Hand me my scalpel I can still help her it isn't too late."

*I handed Zander the scalpel no sure why he needed it until I saw why, he began to cut her feet open draining the blood but it would heal over as soon as it was cut. My mate which would at one point would have shied away from the slightest touch wouldn't even twitch when her feet were cut.*

"Her fox has too much energy and is producing too much blood and healing her too quiqly!"

"Isn't their something you can do?!!!"

"Yes, keep cutting her feet open and try and drain her blood out."

(Minus sorra fure prove)

*Everywhere I turned I saw red splattered everywhere and I saw glazed eyes and the last thing I saw before everything went dark,was red eyes and a blood stained face. I was all alone not even Snow could come and help me. I was all alone. Gun shots rung out howls and whimpers of dying warriors and wolves in my pack and past rung out echoing in nothingness. My face was tear stained.Everywhere I turned I saw the faces of the murdured. People I didn't even know and yet I was crying weather from fear or not I was crying. I had never felt so alone in my entire life. This world was so cold and unforgiving I was in a dark part of my mind a part that I have Locked away and forgotten from fear, this is the reason I went blind, so I wouldn't see the horror of people murdured everytime I closed my eyes. I was the one who blinded myself, I blinded myself without even knowing I had. I saw a dark figure come forth with blood red eyes and a dark black coat. It looked like Snow but it wasn't.*

' In case you were wondering I am not Snow, I am Ash . I am the keeper of your dark memories the ones you wanted to forget, the one who keeps you blind so you don't have to suffer the horrors of the world.'

'What is this, when did I ever see this?'

*My face was stained with tears and I was crying blood.*

'When you were first born, these are your first memories of the world.You need to relax or you will kill yourself.'

'HOW CAN I RELAX AFTER SEEING THAT!!'

*My blood boiled and Ash began to manifest into a dark entity her eyes became blood red and her muzzle dripped with blood. She was feeding off of my negative energy.*

' Don't put fire in the coals relax.'

*I was trying too but I was so scarred right now. I felt a warm light embrace me and sooth me. Once that happened Ash went back to normal.*

' Listen right now you are fighting for your life, I didn't wish for you too see this until later but you have. When you wake up, if you wake up I can take away the memories, tho not the fear of what you felt here. When you are ready it will be shown too you. As long as you
Wake up that is.'

'What do you mean as long as I wake up?'

'Currently you are in a very fine line between life an Death that is why you can see me. Your moms fox which I now resign in you since she died right when you were born and still connected. With your moms dying breath she gave you me. Somebody to help keep your truly dark memories tucked away. That is why Snow has a black tipped tail paws and muzzle.'

*Slowly the image of Ash vanished and I was left in darkness I could feel warmth and a voice, so warm but I couldn't reach it. I was stuck in nothingness . I curled up in a fetal position and half of my face cried blood the other salty tears. I had nobody here. I was all alone.*