River's POV
I had no energy to deal with Lando right now. He was trying to pull me back in, trying to weave his web around me again.
I had other things to worry about right now.
My mother wrote that I had to be nice to my brother, but I couldn't even remember I had a brother.
I pushed so many memories away, did I really push the memory of my brother away too?
Or did he die in that accident as well?
But if he didn't, then where was he?
I had to ask Christian. Why didn't he tell me about it?
"Hi River, how are you? You did great by the way" Lewis said with a smile on his face.
He was so nice to me last night, he was there for me, he comforted me through the night without saying much.
He just was... there.
"I am good, you did great too" he certainly did, he qualified P4, so it wasn't a lie.
"I just want to tell you how thankful I am for you being there for me last night and I'm sorry for crying so much" I tried to laugh it off.
I cried, I broke down in front of Lewis fucking Hamilton.
He didn't need to be there for me, he had nothing to gain from it, he just was being an amazing friend and that's exactly what I needed.
I wasn't crying because of Lando last night, I was crying because of my mom's letter but he probably thought it was because of Lando.
"Don't worry about it River, everyone needs someone" he smiled.
That's exactly what I told Lando just a minute ago. I don't know what it was, but he just was on the same page as me.
"Exactly" I nodded.
Christian was walking out of his hospitality followed by Helmut. Yeah okay I wasn't gonna go to him now.
"You wanna go to dinner maybe?" Lewis asked. "Yeah sure, I'm just gonna take a shower first"
He chuckled. "Me too, I'll pick you up at 7" he said as he brushed his fingers over my arm.
I could still remember when he didn't like me and now he was asking me to dinner.
How times have changed.
Lewis walked away and I wanted to get out of this paddock as well but just when Lewis walked in his hospitality, Athena walked out of it.
"River, one second?" She asked softly as she walked up to me. "I just want to give you this" she said as she wrapped her arms around me.
"He knows" she whispered "Every time he sees you, smiling, talking to another guy or he hears about all of your amazing accomplishments - he feels this little pinch inside of him"
She took a step back but didn't look away. Her eyes stayed on mine.
"He knows that you're the one that got away and he's got no one to blame, but himself"
I smiled, just a little because I was a little tired of talking about him. "Thanks Athena"
"Wanna go grab drinks together?" She asked. "Maybe tomorrow? Lewis asked me to go to dinner"
Her eyebrow raised, just for a second. "Oh-" she didn't know how to react to that.
She knew we were friends, so why was she acting so surprised?
"You do realize that he.. likes you?" She asked a little hesitant. "Yeah, I like him too"
I always liked him, I admired him, he was always so respectful and caring.
"Oh okay, great" she stuttered a little. "Have fun then, you can tell me all about it tomorrow" she waved and walked back in her hospitality.
Tell her about what?
She was definitely acting a bit weird, but many people were acting weird around me lately. They didn't know what to say, how to act.
I hated that. Yes it sucked and it hurt but I had heartbreaks before, I would get over it.
Sooner or later.
