As if I wasn't already nervous enough, now I had to deal with a pregnancy scare as well.
It probably was just a scare because I was on birthcontrol and I never forgot a pill so I wanted to push that thought away.
I returned to my room and started working on the strategy. I knew how much it meant to Lando, I knew he wanted to qualify high because he wanted to finish on the podium.
Even though Lando and I weren't together anymore, I still wanted him to perform well. I still wanted to give him race wins.
I put my hair in a high bun and put some comfy clothes on, I totally forgot about my plans with Charles until there was a knock on my door.
"Fuck" I muttered as I got up and opened the door. He definitely put effort in his outfit, not like me.
"Okay I think we have different ideas about going out together" he chuckled as he looked at me.
Well no, but I totally forgot about it.
"I-I have to admit that I kinda forgot" I stuttered. I felt embarrassed. I felt bad for him.
"You want me to go? We can chill in your room if you want? I'm pretty easy" he laughed.
I opened the door a little wider to let him in and he smiled as he walked in. He looked at my laptop, I finished working on the strategy just a minute ago.
But that was none of his business.
I walked up to my laptop, closed it and put it on the table.
"We can watch a movie?" I turned to him with a smile on my face. "Perfect" he said enthusiastically.
We watched the movie together and I was so tired, I couldn't help but fall asleep, also because he was pretty comfortable to cuddle with.
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I slept amazing, I slept the entire night without waking up once, that's how tired I was.
But when I woke up, I noticed I was alone. Charles left but I didn't mind too much.
I stretched my arms and looked around. My laptop was open, which was weird because I definitely remembered closing it.
"Fuck no" I sighed as I got up and grabbed my laptop. It was open on the strategy, but not on the page where I worked on.
Charles.
Fucking asshole used me to look at our strategy. Was he serious?
I knew they were desperate, but I didn't expect this.
A shower calmed me down a little but I was still furious when I left my room. I was holding my laptop in my hands and drove my car to the track.
What was I gonna do? He was probably gonna use our strategy, which wasn't really a big deal for quali but I had to figure something out for the race.
"Rough night?" Lando asked as he scanned his pass and walked with me in the paddock.
I shrugged my shoulders but didn't answer.
"Are you okay?" He asked so softly, so genuine and I broke down. It was all getting too much.
I turned into such a emotional mess lately.
Lando immediately pulled me closer to him and guided me to the hospitality. He covered me a little so no one would notice I was crying.
We walked upstairs to his drivers room. I put my laptop on his couch and sat down next to it. My head in my hands.
Lando kneeled down in front of me. "Hey, what's wrong River?"
"Charles stole the strategy I made for this weekend" I admitted, there was no point in hiding it.
"You think that strategy will fit their Ferrari car?" He asked calmly.
I shrugged. I didn't know, I didn't think about that.
"Can I look at the strategy?" He asked. I nodded and put my laptop in his hands.
He sat down next to me and nudged my shoulder a little. "You definitely need a password idiot"
"I know" it seemed so obvious now and I knew I had to do it, I just always forgot about it.
He took a minute to go over the entire strategy while nodding his head sometimes.
"This looks perfect, I think we just need to use this strategy" he looked at me.
"So we don't care that Ferrari will probably do the same thing?"
He shook his head. "I wouldn't care about them too much, I don't think this strategy will fit them"
He probably noticed the worried look on my face because he put his hand on my cheek and turned my head to him.
"And if you notice that it does fit their car during the race then you do something risky, okay? I won't doubt you, I'll come in whenever you tell me to"
His thumb rubbed my cheek softly. "I trust you" he mumbled.
And it was the first time in a while that I actually believed him. It was the first time that I didn't doubt his words.
It was the first time in a while since I felt like a team again.
