(Y/N pov)
After i saw the blood, Lori started to collapse, i quickly stood up and helped her down on the floor. I look at her and she was struggling to keep her eyes open
"Mom? Mom, look at me, look at me, keep your eyes open!" Carl called out to his mum
"We have to get you back to Hershel" i say panicking.
"I won't make it." Lori said tiredly.
"Fuck off Lori, with all this blood, I don't even think you're fully dilated yet, no amount of pushing is gonna help, if I have to carry you back i will." i tell her
"I know what it means, and I'm not losing my baby. You've gotta cut me open." She tells me and my face pales
"No, I can't." i tell her as my eyes starts to water
"You don't have a choice." she said breathlessly
"I'll go for help." Carl said and goes to walk away.
"No!"Lori quick shouts at him and he stops
"Look, i've only done c-sections on animals, Carol's the one that practiced that, Hershel only taught me the steps Lori, if I..." i say but am cut off
"Please..." she begs
"I have no anesthetic, no equipment..." i tell her
"you said it yourself you have done it on animals" she paused "Carl has a Knife."
"Yes on animals Lori, if they didn't survive afterwards, we'd bury them or if it was a cow cut it up and stick it in out freezer, i am not going to be the person who kills the kids mother cause if i do this... you won't survive." i yell at her in frustration, not at her but at the situation
"My baby has to survive... Please... (she's breathing heavily) My baby, for all of us... Please, Y/N! Please." she begs me and a single tears drops, and I shake my head no "Please..." I look at Lori's stomach and see a scar.
"See my old C-section scar?" Lori ask
"I can't."i say tears spilling down my face
"You can. You have to." she tells me before looking at "Carl? Baby, I don't want you to be scared, okay? This is what I want. This is right. Now you-- you take care of your daddy for me, all right? And your little brother or sister, you take care..." she tells him but was cut off
"You don't have to do this." He cries
"You're gonna be fine... You are gonna beat this world, I know you will. You are smart, and you are strong, and you are so brave! And I love you." she tell him ad i look over the see tears running down his face
"I love you too." Carl tells his mother
"You gotta do what's right, baby. You promise me, you'll always do what's right. It's so easy to do the wrong thing in this world. (she starts crying) So don't... so if it feels wrong, don't do it, all right? If it feels easy don't do it. Don't let the world spoil you. You're so good!" at this point I'm falling apart as I listen to Lori "You're my sweet boy! The best thing I ever did! I love you! I love you. You're my sweet, sweet boy, I love you." she pulled carl in for a hug as she said her goodbyes and i sobbing know I'm the one who is going to kill her "Okay... okay, now. Okay. Y/N, when this is over, you're gonna have to..." she starts to say but i cut her off
"Shh..."
"No, you have to do it, it can't be Rick. " i breath to try to calm down, and so does Lori "Alright, alright, it's alright. It's alright... Before you do anything Y/N, i want you to promis me you'll look out for my kids, i've seen how protective you are of carl, please just look after both of them for me" she ask and i nod my head, not trusting the words to come out, Carl gives me his Knife. "Goodnight, love." where her last words
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