[still updating but I'm going in to fix some of my errors !!]
Fives Years After Zhang Hao suddenly disappeared from his family and friends, he shows up in the hospital where he is reunited with his high school crush Sung Hanbin. What could happen be...
"Um..honey why don't you two come inside and we'll talk about this together, alright?" My mom told me. I didn't know what to say and just nodded. As they walk into the house I suddenly feel something grab my hand. Hanbin's hand tightly squeezes mine in a comforting way which make me smile.
When we both walk into the house together and walk into the living room I dropped Hanbin's hand before anyone notices. I wish i didn't he's the only comfort I've gotten these past five years.
"You two know each other?" My mom questions.
I nod. "Yeah, Gunwook was my doctor's assistant when I was in the hospital."
"Hospital? Oh god honey are you alright?"
"I'm fine." I'm surprised she even asked. "What's going on?"
"Hao, this is your cousin from your dad's side. You met him when you were really little but you probably don't remember him. Um Gunwook's parents recently passed and um me and your father are his god parents."
"You replaced me?"
"Hao! We would never replace you. You are the one the left us in the first."
"So you are putting this one me? You have no idea what these five years were like for me! And yeah I made pretty terrible mistakes-"
"Hao..don't blame yourself." Hanbin calmly told me as he put his hand on my thigh making me break into tears.
"Mom-"
"Son. Why don't we stop talking about this for now and you go and rest..ok?" My father says. I'm speechless. My own parents don't care.
I don't say a word as I get up. I just grab Hanbin's wrist and drag him to my old bedroom. As we walk into my room I stop at the door. It's the same from when I left.
"Hao.." Hanbin hugs me tightly. It's weird. Usually if I'm being hugged I start to panic. But..I just start to cry in Hanbin's arms.
"Can I stay at your place?"
I feel Hanbin nod his head. "Of course Hao. Let's go."
"Are you guys leaving?"
"Mm, I'm going to go stay at Hanbin's, if that's ok?"
"Oh, um yeah, yes of course hon wherever your most comfortable." My mom smiled and went in for a hug. Although this time once she was hugging me I felt anxious and scared, so I back away in a panic. "Hao are you alright? What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?"
"Han-bin..can, can we go?" My arm latches around Hanbin's waist. I can't even think properly. What is wrong with me.
"Oh, um yeah ok." Hanbin said. "Um we will get going now." He bows his head to my parents and Hanbin then wraps his arm around me which calms me down.
My mom said something but I couldn't understand her words.
Once we are in the car Hanbin took a hold of my hand in his and didn't say anything. He just drove back to his apartment with my hand in his.
When we got inside he and I walked to the couch and just sat there in silence for a minute. His hand still holding mine.
"Hao?" Hanbin broke the silence. "I don't want to throw thousands of questions at you and stress you out, and if you don't want to answer this it's completely up to you I won't force you but you can if you want, but..are you alright?"
I stayed silent for a moment but eventually spoke up. "No. I'm not," I choke on my words. "Ok..." Here come the tears. "I don't know what's wrong with me Bin. I really don't."
**Trigger warning! This section contains talks about abuse, manipulation, language etc. please be aware. If you get triggered easily please skip this part and continue at the <*> i re wrote it so it shouldn't be that bad but just to be safe for anyone***
He embraces me into a warm hug and starts crying as well. "Hao. Nothing is wrong with you. I promise you that."
"Can I tell you what happened?" I ask. He stays quiet and nods his head.
A/n I accidentally switched povs somehow without realizing it so now it's from Hao's perspective again...sorry about that~
"Five years ago or so, I don't really know how many years have gone by. Anyways five years ago I fell in love with someone..a guy..um...Woobin to be exact." I pause for Hanbin's reaction.
"Cho Woobin?"
I nod. "Well technically I wasn't the one who fell in 'love' first. He sorta forced it on me because he knew I am gay." I paused again. "Oh yeah, surprise." I awkwardly chuckled. "I hope that part doesn't change how you think about me."
Hanbin shook his head. "Hao. I've got a surprise too. I'm also gay." He's what?!
"Really?!" He nods his head. "Oh..heh...um i guess the best friends who are gay together stay together?" Shit I shouldn't be making jokes at this time. "Sorry making jokes is a coping mechanism."
He laughs a little. "Don't apologize, I like your jokes."
I feel my face heat up.
"Anyways sorry, he um forced it on me. I don't know if he was just a dick or in the closet or both but he constantly kissed me. That's when I um disappeared. He told me to stop seeing, speaking to you guys or he'll leave me forever. And by this point I was already manipulated by him to think nobody would ever love me again so I listened to him. Worst decision of my life. We moved into an apartment and the kissing still happened until one day he told me he was bored of me and kept leaving the house at night to fuck girls then come home drunk just to hit me over and over and over again."
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"Hao..I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Nobody should ever have to deal with that."
"And you know what's funny? You are the only person who gives me comfort when I'm being hugged. When my mom tried to hug me again before we left i couldn't handle it. It caused me pain. But when you hug me, it brings me happiness and warmth."
"I'm always here for you Hao when you need a hug." Hanbin smiled softly.
He really is the best. ———
Sorry for the longer chapter😭and the ruff chapter 😬 anyways fluff chapters are to come!! Also to any American celebrating happy thanksgiving!! I'm Canadian but I hope you eats lots of turkey and watch the game! stay safe!!
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