𝐓𝐗𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒

5 Months | 🐻🐧

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5 months

"5 months of Kai loving Beomgyu from afar and writing about him in his journal silently, to the final note he writes before confessing his love out loud"

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I remember the first time I saw you, Beomgyu hyung. I still remember it as clearly as of today, I was bewitched. I couldn't sleep that night, because all I did was think about you while counting the countless numbers of stars in the sky.
-11/02/23

Your smile, that is a dangerous weapon hyung. You can't carry it all the time with you like this. I remember your first smile, which was directed towards me..when you called my name with a smile. That "Kai" still has my heart beating like crazy. My name rolls off your tongue so easily, it sounds almost unreal. Like, how can someone say a name so beautifully? That one laugh, that damn laugh of yours..and I was gone. I was completely gone for you from that exact moment. I gave my heart to you that very day.
-20/02/23

You were all I ever wished about. You became my wish, my desire. Everynight, I would look at the moon and wish that you were beside me, watching the moon with me together. That was my only wish at this point. And it still is. Beomgyu hyung do you even know what you do to my poor heart?
-05/03/23

I remember that Night, that one special night when our eyes met for the first time. I was walking you back to your house after a long day, and you were being your usual charming self, talking and laughing loudly and I couldn't help but stare at your pretty sparkling eyes..and that's when our eyes met. It was a magical moment, our eyes met and the flower of love which was already growing in my heart, bloomed beautifully.
-26/03/23

It was like Love at First sight. I never knew or anticipated falling for someone like this, but here you are..making me a Lover boy. Your eyes, those beautiful sparkling eyes did some Magic to my heart and I completely lost myself that moment. Your eyes swept me off my feet and I feel for you like the Lovesick fool I am.
-15/04/23

Hyung, I wanna pluck all the stars from the sky and decorate the path you walk on with them. You're too precious, way too precious for me. A person like you deserves all the sparkles and Rainbows. Please wait for me, so I can lay all the stars on your path. Give me a chance, hyung. I promise to Love you with all my heart.
-21/04/23

Hyung, I know you need someone. I know you're suffering behind those smiles, you have flaws but that's what makes you amazing. You think you're not worth it, no you're wrong hyung. You may have flaws, but that's what makes you YOU. I love all the flaws about you too. Just give me a chance, just a small sign, I'm ready to burn my heart and light up your world with it. I'm willing to be your light Hyung. I just need you to give me a hint.
-02/05/23

It's funny isn't it? How crazy in love I'm with you? Soobin hyung teases me everyday about it. He says I'm a loser to not confess to you. Maybe he's right. It's not everyday that you find a Lovesick fool like me, who loves you to death. So if I confess, will you put your hands in mine? Will you accept my Love hyung?
-15/05/23

You know hyung? Whenever I read a Romance book and read about Couples and their love, I wanna recreate those scenes with you. The pretty café dates, Movie nights, hugs under the lamp-post, Cuddling, Beach night kisses, Domestic fluff.. everything. I want to do all those things with you Beomgyu hyung.
-16/05/23

Now that I think about it, it's impossible to live without you hyung. It's like you're the oxygen I breathe and the Water I drink. It's honestly so hard for me to describe how important you are to me in these few words.
I'm thinking about confessing to you today. I wish I could decipher my love for you with these limited amount of words. But they will never be equivalent to the amount of love I have for you.
-24/05/23

I'm looking at you, and there you are..with that charming smile of yours. You look so tiny in those clothes hyung. I never knew I would be so much in love with a person that I would give them my life gladly if they asked for it. Yes, I'm talking about you. I'll sacrifice my life gladly if I need to. That's how much I love you hyung.

God, give me the courage to voice out my feelings.
-02/06/23

I had asked Beomgyu to wait up after classes today, finally gathering all my courage to voice out my feelings to the guy I have loved silently so far.

"What is it Hyuka?" Beomgyu asked me, once I stood infront of him with a nervous smile.

"Hyung, I love you."

"W-what?"

"Yeah hyung, I love you. I'm in love with you. I fell for you the first time you smiled at me. Will you give me a chance to love you Hyung? Am I worthy of loving you?"

"K-kai what-"

"I love you since that Moon-lit light when I saw you laugh, hyung. I love you hyung. It's okay if you don't but I lo-"

And I was forced to stop mid-sentence. Why? Because hyung shut me up with his lips. Is this a dream? Is Hyung actually kissing me? Oh Yes he is! We are kissing under the moonlight. His lips are on mine and my hands are in his. God granted me my wish. I finally have Beomgyu hyung in my Arms.

"H-hyung.."

"I love you too Hyuka, since the day I saw you for the first time smiling at me too. Guess we are the same, except you're not a coward like me."

I can't believe Hyung is really saying that. He loved me since the beginning too? Was he feeling the same all this time?

"So..can I be yours now hyung?" I asked him, hoping to get a "yes".

"Y-yeah. Sure Hyuka.."  Hyung is Blushing. Oh my god did I make him blush? I'm the most successful person right now. Beomgyu hyung just said yes to me!!

This time, when our eyes met again..and the Flower fully blossomed with beautiful petals. Our hearts became each others, under the moonlight. I don't admire you from afar now hyung, you're in my arms now...just like I always wished for.
-03/06/23

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Hello Luvs!! This is a Beomkai oneshot I had written some time ago, and I edited it now to publish it. I'm also working on the requests you guys asked for! It would have been out soon, but my aunt passed away and I couldn't focus on writing for 3-4 days. I'm okay now, and the Beomjun arrange marriage au would be next as requested!! Look forward to it hehe~
-Rin💗