Lab Baby

Just Want You

Everything was perfect.

From the flowers to the placement of the decorations, everything was looking enchanting for the mating ritual. It was perfect in everyone's eyes, including Seonghwa's. He had never thought of the future for himself. He never thought in all of his life he would be preparing for a celebration for himself, much less a mating ritual that was the second closest thing to a wedding. He was excited and also terrified of what this adventure would bring to him.

It really helped a lot when Yeosang and Wooyoung took over most of the decorating and details for the ritual. They both made sure things were going smoothly and were more stressed about the whole ordeal than Seonghwa was. They made sure to include him in the decision-making process for his own ritual, but really Seonghwa was more focused on getting ready for being tied to Mingi for the rest of his life. What really made him nervous, was the actual mating.

To put it bluntly, he was a virgin. He never had sex with anyone, the only thing he has come close to fully sex-related was when he experienced his first heat. And really, if it counted, his first time wasn't the best... for the past month, he had been fighting with his feelings about mating and trying to fight back the memories of the cold, gloved touches... the voices...

"Star?" Mingi calls out to him, breaking him out of his trance as he looks up at the alpha standing above him.

He almost completely forgot he was preparing dinner, shaking his head he chuckles a little, "Sorry, I... I got lost in my thoughts."

Mingi hums, grabbing a piece of the carrot Seonghwa was cutting before holding it up, "Carrot for your thoughts?"

Seonghwa smiles, shaking his head, "It's nothing..."

"Star," Mingi sighs, setting the carrot down and leaning against the counter, "I know something is troubling you. I have noticed you staring off into space and wanting to change the subject anytime I mention the mating ritual... is... are you nervous?"

Seonghwa hesitates, setting aside the knife and not looking at Mingi as he whispers, "I... I'm nervous about the mating part of the ritual..." he looks up at Mingi who is watching him with soft eyes as Seonghwa continues, "I told you how Minjun was conceived, and how... how I..."

"Star... you don't have to -"

"It's okay," Seonghwa nods, biting his lip, "I... I have never been with an actual person Mingi. I never got to experience being in someone's arms, having them give me pleasure... my first time was traumatic, and I'm afraid when the time comes for us to make our mating ritual official I'll panic."

Mingi brings Seonghwa in his arms and hugs him tight, burying his face in Seonghwa's black hair as he whispers, "I won't push you my Star... And if you want we don't have to fully mate but there is the mark..."

"No," Seonghwa shakes his head, "No Mingi I want to go all the way with you, really I do! I'm just... I'm worried I'll..." he sighs as he pulls away to look up at the alpha, biting his cheek as he whispers, "I'm worried I won't be able to give you what you want..."

Mingi sighs softly, "Star..." he cups Seonghwa's cheeks as he looks into his eyes, "You are all that I want. All that I need. I have you, I have Minjun, I have my pack. That is all I need in my life. And we can wait, I can wait for however long you need me to wait my love. We don't have to fully commit to the mating ritual, as long as we have each other's mark, that's all I need."

"But I know you will want a pup-"

"A pup would be nice, but you know what's nicer?" Mingi asks, smiling softly, "My mate is happy and comfortable, and ready when it comes to sex. I never want to pressure you Seonghwa, and I want what is best for you. Don't think about my needs, think about yours. Okay?"