"Love .."

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The bright warm sun radiating through the window of lamere's apartment had woken me up, the smell of coffee and the sound of it brewing in its cup and the warm black sheets that i held onto all night, everything was perfect

I rubbed the sheets beside me expecting a warm body to fulfill my hands, i yawned as i sat up in his bed feeling confused on where he was, all that laid was me bare naked in his bed with only his imprinted body on the sheets beside me. I pulled his cover up against my chest gripping it to cover me up, his room door was wide open so i tilted over in bed and slightly poked my head out, just as i poked my head out he started walking into the room, i sat back in the bed quickly before he walked back into the room

He walked in the room fully clothed with a mug in his hand,  he stood in front of the bed staring back at me with his face looking like he was ready to start the day with a clear mind while i looked like i just had got 50 years of whiplash

"G'morning" he said as he handed me the mug

I looked at him confused and slowly took the mug from his hand "..morning"

He stood with a smile waiting for me to take a sip of the coffee, i hesitantly took a sip of the coffee

"Why are you so energized" i asked

"I finally got good sleep last night" he said

I brung the cup down with raised eyebrows " how ? I barely got a wink"

"I dont know, maybe because i had my crush in my arms tonight"

I then playfully nudged him " shut up" i said laughing

I looked him up and down analyzing him in confusion as it seemed as if he had already showered up and looked like he was heading off elsewhere.

"...are you going somewhere ?"

He then noticed my eyes analyzing his outfit and his eyes followed mine looking down at his outfit then he looked back at me with a small chuckle

"Oh yeah i have to go handle something small, it should only take me a few"

"Oh okay where is i could probably go with you if i hurry"

He then sucked in his lips like i was making this hard for him and i was supposed to just go with the flow, he stood on his toes then rocked back on his heels.

"Uhh" he scratched his head "no, its something important and personal"

Personal ?

"Oh- oh okay, you dont have to tell me any more" I awkwardly chuckled that more likely sounded like a raspy cough " i'll just go home"

"No no no, you dont it'll just take a second, u-unless you want-

"N-no  i can stay if you want..?"

"I mean yeah but if you want to go you can im just saying..."

"Yeah..."

There was a long awkward silence that i dreaded every minute of, we were both still coming to terms with what happened last night so of course were going to be awkward the next morning, but i wish i could just tell him he doesn't have to worry and i'll stay here and wait for him, in fact i think i would even wait 5 years if thats what he wanted. I just dont want this sweet moment that were supposed to have the morning after something like that happened to end so shortly before i even get to brush my teeth, besides whats so "personal" that he has to do so urgently, i mean why does he have to go looking like that....so dearly handsome while going to handle something "personal" fuck what does he have planned to go and why cant i go, i mean we did just do the unthinkable last night so why shouldn't i be able to start learning more about you and your "personal" things