"Love .."

O29

Lamere💙

After 15 minutes i heard her car pull up

I got up off the couch geeked

I looked over to my brother and dapped him up

"You finna do it" he asked

"Imma try to" i said

"Igh handle yo own" he said

I sighed and walked off

Can i really do this, can i really let her go

I opened the front door and saw her car out in the driveway, she was sitting in the front looking down at her phone

I walked up to the passenger side and knocked on the window

She looked up from her phone and unlocked the door

I dont think i ever acknowledged her beauty but now she looks even better than the first time i ever met her

Flashback::::

Me and my homeboy walked into the skating rink, we were supposed to be meeting some girls for a 2 man, not gonna lie im so excited if things go right this might be my first girlfriend i hope ion do nun corny

Me and my homeboy walked into the skating rink and he patted my chest pointing into a direction where two girls stood, well one girl was standing and the other was sitting with one roller skate in her hand and her phone in the other, she looked really agitated

We walked towards the girls and my homeboy started talking to the girl standing up, but i dont know how but something drew me to the girl sitting down, even though i know most wouldn't go for a girl like her but she just stood out to me

I walked up to her and stood over her looking down at her

"Dang shawty did you even try and skate"

She looked up and I finally got a chance to see her face, and she is gorgeous like a angel, she made my heart flutter

"I did and i fell 5 times" she said laughing

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Present day::::

She looked over to me and sighed, then grabbed my face looking at my eyes

"I wanted to talk to you sober" she said

"Oh my bad"

It was silent for a second

"You knew what you were doing, you didn't wanna talk to me sober, i know you lamere" she said

Mtch

"I guess" i said turning my head out the window

"I wanted to have a serious conversation, but I didn't wanna yell" she said

"Yeah ion wanna argue tonight"

"So um ive been thinking and i now know that i cant live without you lamere, i mean we cant live without each other"

"Mmm" i said

"I think if we take it slow this time we could actually get together again and we wont be toxic, and no one will get between us anymore" she said

"It'll be like that first summer when we first got together, all we have to do is take it much slower, but if we competely start over we can be as strong as before" she said

This is not how i wanted this talk to go

She then looked over to me and grabbed my hand

"I wanna make this work lamere, i want us back, the old us back"

"......me to" i said

"Okay then we can get back to there, you just gotta put a foot out for me lamere" she said

Dont loose sight of what you came here to say lamere

"Yknow i love you lamere, our souls are tied" she said

I looked at our hands which were now interlocked then up at her face

This ain goin as planned, i needa dip now

"Please dont give up on us, i have faith in us, dont you" she said looking up into my eyes with that face

"I- i dont know" i said

Once i said that her face fell down to its normal state, and she moved her hands

Thank you lord, if she have said the right words i might've fell in to her delusions

She rolled her eyes

I adjusted my hands in my pockets and turned my head to the window

....

"Yknow I had a talk with that one shawty, what was her name again..... oh yeah alyssa"

What...

My heart fell down and my eyes widened

Calm down, calm down

I dont want her to see my reaction to that so i acted uninterested

She turned her head towards me

"She's really pretty" she said

"What'd you say to her"

"...nothing really, just how me and you are thinking of getting back together, aren't we" she said interlocking out hands again

No, no, no, no, no, no. You just ruined everything

"I- uh i gotta go" i said

I opened the car door and left

Is that why Alyssa suddenly started tweaking out on me, is it because of jalessa

Did jalessa sau something

Why do i care so much

This is stupid why am i running away. I was supposed to call it off with jalessa so why now am i leaving it off here. Whyd I get so shocked at what she said. All she had to say was alyssas name and i start tweaking out. Why am i getting so caught up and doing all of this for one girl who doesn't even want me anymore. Why wont i just let het go and get back in that car and feed into jalessa delusions. Why is it now that i care so much. Why is she all of a sudden on my mind 24/7, this never would've happened if alyssa wasnt in my life. why did we have to meet that night.....why couldn't i been somewhere else at another time....whyd i have to meet Alyssa