"Love .."

01

Alyssa | age 19

PROFESSOR

"And tonight I want you guys to really think about the assignment I'm about to assign to you, you guys are creative writing major's so I want all of the creative juices to flow in this assignment. The due date is Friday by 12am, And before you guys ask this will be 10 percent of your grade. other than that you guys are dismissed"

As the last words processed out of her mouth I immediately jumped out of my chair and grabbed my laptop and my tote bag , I hurried out of that class even with the loud Snickers and the gossip making its way throughout the class and my ex yelling out my name and throwing his hands up in the air as if he hadn't created all of this.

"Whats the problem babe, after all your famous now, you should be thanking me now" he said laughing along with the rest of the class

Tears dropped from my eyes as i shut the door on the class that stared and laughed and gossiped about me. Nothing in the world mattered more to me then leaving that class, i ran out of that class and ran thru the hallways not caring who looked and stared or laughed. My vision was blurred from the salty tears that blurred my vision

I saw the front passage to outside, all it was was just a few steps away and i was out, and i could finally cry as loud as i want and not feel like someone is gossiping about me behind me

Just as i was about to make it to freedom I bumped into a hard tall figure, my feet stumbled and i fell onto the ground with my bag following with me

"Ughhh" i groaned loudly

"Uh my bad i didn't see you, you good?"

I looked up and saw a tall attractive guy who i have never saw around, holding a bouquet of flowers ready for his girlfriend

He held out his other hand which held nothing for me to hold onto

Gosh guys like him piss me off, just randomly holding a bouquet of flowers while going around in every girls face looking handsome, just gives us girls false hope once we see the lucky girl who gets to have the bouquet of flowers. Wishing that it was us who was the Lucky girl for once

I rolled my eyes and scoffed, i slapped his hand from out of my face

"People like you piss me off" i said before walking off

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Not long after i found myself alone outside in the football field crying, I poured all my emotions out that I've been hiding everysince this morning when i first found out the news.

After an hour or so my best friend brianna came and found me crying alone, i dont know how she found me but she did. She took a seat by me on the bleachers and hugged me while I was crying like a mother that i never had

I felt broken and mistreated as a person, after all ive done to make it to the heights ive made it to just for him to quickly make me consider ending what i started, i have done nothing in the world to deserve what happened to me today. So why did it have to happen

"How come.... Ive worked so..so freaking hard just for him...to tear it all down...and leave me here hopelessly" i said in between sobs

"I still can't believe he would ever do something like that to you" she said

"I mean, I fucking loved him so much, and i-.......i hoped that he loved me back"

"Yeah, i mean i thought you guys would last forever"

"Me too"

"Your better without him, things will get way better without him" she said patting my hair

"...its easier said than done" i said sniffling

Wait..

My eyes widened and i shot up from the hug

"What if i get kicked out"

"Out of what" she asked

"College duh"

"Girl no, definitely not"

"Well how do you know that"

"Why would they ever kick you out, yes this is something serious but you are one of the best upcoming creative writers they have here" Brianna said

"Still, I just feel like a mess right now" i said looking off

"Okay......youll get over it, its not like its the end of the world alyssa, i mean ive gotten my nudes leaked to and i got over it in a hour"

"No but our situation is diff-

"I really dont care whether it's different or not, i have to meet up with tiana soon so lets continue this conversation later at my place and im sure you'll feel much better" she said

My eyes widened

When did she get so....selfish

She shot her head up at me quickly realizing her mistake

"I didn-

"No dont say anything ! I dont want to hear anything" i said grabbing my things

"Wait noo, im sorry i didn't mean it"

She then held onto my shirt trying to make me stay

"No dont worry about me, it was my fault from the start from just thinking i could vent to my best friend about getting my nudes leaked by someone i loved for 2 FUCKING YEARS, but i see just that is to much to ask"

I then put my tote bag over my shoulder and walked off angrily

Not even my best friend wants to put up with my issues
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My boyfriend for 2 years just exposed my nudes that I shared with him and him only today, it was never ever supposed to be like this with me and him, we were supposed to be that cute college couple. but the more time we spent together in college it's like he just kept pushing me more and more to have sex with him, and the more i said no to him the more he put distance between us.

I'm still a virgin, and I know that may sound dumb but I'm just not ready for anything like that yet

So one night it's like his hormones was just so crazy and he wanted sex right then and there or he said he was going to cheat on me, he said exactly that it would be a guarantee he would be unfaithful, I didn't want to break up and I didn't want him to cheat on me I loved him too much, but having sex was definitely not an option so I made up my mind and jus sent him some pictures of my miniature size tits....I don't know why I would ever think that would be a good idea because after I sent them he sent laughing emojis and never sent anything after that at all, I thought everything was all good today until one of my associates broke the news to me

I loved him so much, even when he wouldn't show any affection to me, or when he never said i love you back

My mom knew about him and thats alot to itself for her to know him, i don't often talk to my mom nor see her so her meeting him and approving is alot. and I met his side and they approved of me to, we were so good until it was like a light switched with him and all of a sudden it was sex or break up, and I had to do something even if that meant embarrassing myself