"Love .."

O24

I collapsed onto my bed and felt as the tears started filling my eyes and i couldny hold them back

I mean of course he had a girlfriend what was i thinking that i was his only, thats such a dumb mindset to have when your dealing with someone like him

To be honest i should've just listened to Tiberius when he told me before that i should leave lamere alone now look at me crying all alone in my bed once again

I sat up and whipped my tears

I did this to myself right, and i knew the consequences, so now i have to man up and try and move on

I got up out my bed and went to my bathroom and grabbed my anti bacterial soap and got in the shower

I scrubbed till it hurt and got that henna from off my neck

I cant believe i gave him my virginity

I wish i could run away from here like a little kid, this isn't how my college experience was supposed to go not at all, i dont even know what I'm doing here anymore or what im even majoring in, how am i supposed to be an author when im this dense

Once i got out the shower i grabbed my robe and lathered on some lotion, then i put on some night clothes

After i washed my face and brushed my teeth. And after i went in my room and looked around and saw all of his stuff just casually laying down like he lives here

I grabbed a medium box and started picking up all of his things and put them all in the box, the henna kit, his jacket, the shoes he got me, his tooth brush, his hair brush, and his house shoes he always leaves here

I put them all into that box and put it on my table for tomorrow. Tomorrow will be my last day falling behind and putting up with him

This is not how i wanted my college life to go and this isnt how it was early in the year, im going back to that old me who only cared about their future until my life is how i want it to be

I went to sleep crying that night once again, but when i woke up that feeling i felt was numb and i was ready to just get everything over with