"Love .."

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Lamere💙💙

I opened the small container of curl moisturizer and i dipped my hand in the cream and scooped out a large amount and applied it to my hair. I mixed the cream into my hair and then grabbed my brush and gently brushed the ends of my hair

I watched how my hair curled. Last month i combed my locs out that were originally freeforms but they started growing longer and it started looking odd and eventually turned into dreads. Since then my hair has grown down to my shoulders

Just as i was about to add more moisturizer to my hair my phone then started buzzing, i looked down at my phone and saw the number that appeared on the phone

405-662-0987

I sighed and took my attention off of it unconsciously doing what i usually do and ignoring it, but then i realized what i used to do is not what i want to do now

I sighed deeply and reluctantly answered the phone

"Hey" i said as the call connected

"Hey lamereee" she said dragging out the E in my name

I could already tell by the voice who this is, the high pitched voice immediately gave it away with just two words being uttered by her

"Hey...hailey"

"Um so i was wondering if you had any plans" she said

"....why"

"Just cause"

"Well...no im not really doing anything"

"Oh thats good, cus i was wondering if you could stop by today and maybe let me cook for you"

My shoulders tensed

"I-i dont think that would be a goo-

"Cmon please just this one time, you still haven't made up for my birthday" she said making her voice more child like

I sighed again knowing that I wouldn't be able to win this battle

Now i have to go

"Okay, i'll be over what time"

"Now ! Right now" she said more excited

"Okay okay, i'll be there" i said

"Okay, hurry" she said

I then moved the phone away from my ear and ended the call, i sighed Knowing that tonight i would have to make up for my ways once again

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I've finally realized my mistakes in life and now i made a decision to try and do better but now i have to deal with many girls in life that i have pushed away and now i have to come face to face with my mistakes again with another girl and this one is one i try my hardest all the time to dodge her, i decline her calls, i go the other direction whenever i see her, i avoid her and her friends

I do everything so that she forgets about me but it never works and even now she still treats me like we're a couple. and i know, i know im a trashy guy and this is all of my fault, i shouldve never gave her the impression that i liked her even if i was just bored, and i never should've kept leading her on when i knew that the feelings were not even close to being mutual

And now look at me hesitating to knock on her door, im pathetic

I know what i have to do tonight, and im not leaving her house until i do it

I hesitantly brung my hand up and knocked on her hard door 3 times

"Coming !" She yelled

I heard her small footsteps click onto the cold tiles in her house, after a couple of minutes i then saw the door open to a short brown haired girl staring up at me