Ang pangarap kung ex

Does or Doesn't matter

Mai's POV

2222 ding.. After opening the door and getting inside the house i suddenly feel lonely. Hindi dahil nakatira ako mag isa dito, na lo-lonely ako but its Kim made me felt lonely. I want to tell her to let her know about me and Jona in the past. And i think it doesn't matter or maybe does matter since im into her. Sa mga nakaraang araw na mag kasama kmi sa office pa unti unti ko siyang nakilala tho siya yung lagi ma kwento. And i find her pretty interesting independent strong and talented woman. She's really cute in her own way especially when she did those holding hands gesture to me. She's funny at same time. Grabe talaga epekto niya sakin at gusto ko pang magbonding sa kanya ng mahaba pang panahon. Pero binabagabag naman ako ng past about this Jona or me with Jona before. I don't know how to tell her or should i tell her or not.

Im so bored sa bahay kaya naisipan ko na lang pumunta ky Don my best-friend my brother my family to me. Don and me are bff for a long time. He knows me well. And every-time im sad confused lonely in life siya ang takbuhan ko. Then i remembered Don got a cancer and i can't believe his dying. Oh man. My man is dying... napahinto ako sa gilid ng kalsada ang humagulgol sa pag iyak. Kung hindi lang pinagkatiwala sa akin ang Concentri nag leave na ako kagad, to spend time.. more time to my bff. The company is dying too those people need my help ayoko din silang biguin. I will try my very best to manage it well even i was absent na last week. And i told Kim i'll be back na.

Pagdating ko sa bahay nila Don deretsu na kagad ako sa kanyang room. Ive been here for how many times and this is like my home too. Sobrang bait ng mga parents niya sa akin and they treat me like a daughter especially noong na ulila na din ako. Habang palapit na ako sa room ni Don na abutan ko siyang naka upo sa harap ng kanyang computer station. He is still completing the songs. We both like music doing and writing songs. At pag tapos na ipapakanta namin to sa mga sikat na singer.

So habang busy siya, umupo ako sa tabi niya at ngumiti. Oh andito kana pala. Ngiti niyang sabe sakin na tila masaya ng nakita ako. Nothing change with him. I can still feel the warmth and comfort despite of what he been going through. At kamusta ka naman bakit busy mo dapat nag papahinga ka na lang at e-enjoy. Eh this is my happiness remember? Yep sabe ko. And why are you here? If this is about me again Mai im okay. Nawala ka na ng isang linggo sa work and im sure madami kapang aasekasuhin. Engot hindi ikaw sinadya ko dito nuh pabalang kung sagot. Napatigil siya sa ginagawa niya at hinaharap ako ng my pagkagulat sa mukha. Hala sasagutin mo na ba si Benjie? Hakdog na ba ang bet mo? At tumawa siya nag pagkalakas. "Si Benjie pala yun kakambal niya. Noong freshmen days my crush ako sa kakambal niya. Gwapo matangkad at maputi. Chinito at napaka athletic dati sa school. Pero simula ng nakahalikan ko si Brenda noong College ako nawala pagka crush ko ky Benjie pati amor ko sa mga lalaki. Hindi ko alam bakit but im more into girls since then. Kissing a man is different feeling for me than kissing a woman. "
Eew, babae bet ko nuh hindi betlog pa bully kung sagot sa kanya. Eh bakit ka pala andito? Wag mo sabihin broken hearted ka kahit na single ka. Sabay balik ng tingin niya sa ginagawa niya. At ayun tuloy tuloy ko ng kwento sa kanya about ky Kim.

Mai, tho my brain is sick but still can give you friendly advise. Sabe nila past is past daw. I agree past is past if you totally embrace what happened in the past. I know your intention is pure. You're honest and kind. So if you like her tell her your intentions. Honestly it doesn't matter but to make good start good impression you need to clear all the doubts. Wala naman mawawala sayo kung sasabihin mo. At ito pa don't make her feel guilty. It can be turn out into guilty trippin scene. What do you mean?? You know the reverse psycho shitty thingy... like baka the moment mo sinabe yun e ma feel guilty siya na siya dahilan ng break up ng ugok mong ex. Okay na gets kita... anyway gusto ka din ba nun? Baka pa-fall lang yun ginagawa sayo ha? I don't know pa ngiti kung sabe. Kilalanin mo muna then trust what you feel pag ready kana then tell her about it. Niyakap ko na lang si Don at medyo nagulat pa siya. Niyakap niya din ako at my kasama pang mahinang tapik sa likod ko. Mai, pag wala na ako at malungkot ka balik ka pa rin dito sa bahay ha hindi ka pababayaan ng mommy at daddy lalo na si Benjie. Nang dahil dun sa sinabe niya umiyak na naman ako ng sobra. At naisipan ko na dito na mag weekend sa kanila.

-- sorry sa lapses ✌️see you next episode