When Hearts Heal

Chapter 5

"And..? " Katie pressed as I sat down next to her. 

"And what?" 

"Isn't he cute ?" 

"Oh yeah, but I mean all of the babies here are cute. I won't say one is cuter than the other but Ben's a real cutie." I answered as I listened to her scoff. 

"Well duh! But I was actually talking about Ben's hot uncle." 

"You're not serious?" I asked in disbelief, rolling my eyes at her comment. "Is that why you gave me the paperwork? Knowing that Ben's would require me to go in there and meet his uncle, conveniently while Ben's parents are not there?" 

"You did not answer my question. " She kept on persisting. 

"And, I'm not going to either. Jaden and I just broke up 2 months ago and I still can't watch The Notebook without crying my eyes out. So no, I'm not ready to date again or even look at another man in that way. " 

"Oh, don't be like that Adi. And besides, the Notebook makes everyone cry, your relationship status has nothing to do with it." She answered back sounding as if she felt she won the conversation. But, I couldn't believe she was trying to set me up with someone else already. I know her intentions were pure, but I'm not there yet and don't think I will be there for at least a few months.

 I want to think that I won't be ready to date again for another year at the least. But, the more I think about it and the more time I spend alone with my thoughts I realize, why do I want to take so much time getting over someone who is clearly over me? Why should I be the one to wallow and feel sorry for myself? I'm a catch. I know that I am. And if he couldn't see that, it should be his loss, not mine. Truthfully I lost him a long time ago and he doesn't deserve any more of my tears. But unfortunately for me, I had real feelings and unlike him, I want to be fully healed before I allow another person into my heart. I don't want to just push my feelings aside and hope it resolves itself because that was never healthy, and his most unattractive trait. 

Well Jaden, Lesson learned.