Fresh Hope

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>brain. Look, he is our friend. He said so. He wanted this too. Talk to him. Let him know your freaking out.
>heart. He is our friend just talk to him, I'm sure he will make you relax. >brain, Yeah maybe he's gone through this before. > heart, Oh wait of course he's been through this before, he's an international superstar. Part of the biggest group in the world and you had to sleep with him. Fuck he's probably got a whole floor of files on the women he's slept with. Your just another name on a piece of paper.
>kitty. Purrrrrrr and ouch but mmmmmmm.
>brain/heart. Least she will be quiet for a while.
>brain, just talk to him. >heart, what if he was just playing the long game?

Your having an internal panic attack.
What the fuck did you just do?
You know what you did, how could you!?
He is your friend and you just fucked him. You should know better.
You have friends that are well known, popular and in the news at times for their work. You also know that the tabloids can be cruel and love juicy gossip.
Yes it's true that you have avoided this aspect of your friends lives. But what you just did and with who, wow that could really ruin both your lives if someone found out. Fuck what if the girls find out. Shit what if his brothers find out. Oh my God, Nicole.

Looking down, his hair is a little damp, his arms are at either side of you. He's so relaxed, like a baby laying on his mother's chest. All you want to do now is hug him back and enjoy this moment. Holding him and tracing your fingers over his bare back, you try to relax but your heads scrambled.
"Sweetie, your heart is racing." Looking up at you "was it really that good, that you haven't calmed down yet". He's trying to be cute, but when he sees your face he sits up. "What's wrong, what happened, I did hurt you!?"

You feel cold now that his body isn't on you. Your also now painfully aware that your naked and the lights are still on in the room. Nothing like reality to really smack you around the head.
"Sweetie, what happened" he asks again. When you don't answer him his face changes a little, Your not sure but maybe he's more angry than concerned. Maybe it's just your brain and your not reading him correctly.

"It's nothing, I was just thinking, it's really nothing" you don't want to upset him. This should be a beautiful moment, laying in each others embrace.
"Look, don't lie to me, if you didn't like it or don't want me tell me, but, if your going to keep things from me...." he's raised his voice and he looks mad.

"Hoseok, I'm not keeping anything. OK, listen. I'm just a little scared of what's going to happen. That's all. We are friends and we just done that, aren't you worried?" You pull back from him a little more, "But the way your reacting it's kind of making me feel worse, and not safe"
Your eyes betray you and the tears are hot on you face.

"Sweetie, I didn't mean, look, I like you, I want this. I really want this, You are my friend and you are safe." He says as he holds you close. "Tell me what's going through your mind, we can sort this"

You tell him in a shy voice, that "I was thinking about the NDA's that all your other women have had to sign, and wondering when I would get mine. I know I shouldn't be thinking about that, but my brain just had to remind me of who you are. I also had a sickening thought about the press. Now, I'm worried that I've upset you, that you maybe only wanted me like this, I'm also really aware that I'm naked and covered in sweat and cum".

Laughing with his whole body.

Not the response you expected or wanted. You feel ashamed. Is this what he had planned. Now your really feeling used. You push him away and fold your arms.
"Oh, my, God. You are so adorable when your Angry." He's still laughing.
That pisses you off. Now shoving him further away you stand up and look for your dress.