Fresh Hope

21 In bloom

Hoseok's plan.
Knock on her door, fall at her feet, and apologise for being a dick.

Knock knock.

Knock knock.

Knock knock.

There's no one in.

'Fuck, look stay calm, call her again.'
You've not picked the calls or answered his messages.
The floor your suite is on is deserted and very quiet. You don't linger instead you head down to the restaurant, maybe she's having dinner or maybe she's in the lobby people watching, he thinks back to the times he's watched people and thought about how you got him into the habit.

The elevator opens, "look Nuna, let's check his room see if he's there. If not, try the common room." Jin has used his pass to let you enter their floor.
"Thanks Hyung, I really appreciate this."  You say.

Knock knock.

Knock knock.

There's no answer.
Walking with you to the common room, Jin opens the door, there's no one their either.
'Fuck, where could he be?'
Sitting on one of the sofas, you let out a frustrated groan.

"Nuna, you wait here, I'm going to call him, you will be able to sort this out, and remember, I'm here if you need me to help"

"Wait, where is my phone.?" You panic a little but then remember it's with Lee and the bag. For safety and ease it's always a rule with you guys, one bag, one person in charge of the bag. All phones and other stuff go into it. She still has it.

Putting your head in your hands, and elbows on your knees. What a 24 hours. This time yesterday you were getting glammed up and feeling so happy.
Now your sat here feeling like shit. You slept with your friend, you then argued about it, spent the day avoiding him, day drank, then kissed his brother. You really don't do things the easy way. Well, its good content for your kdrama life.
'How could you have kissed him back and enjoyed it, you really are low, letting him touch you like that, how could you have been lead so easily. you don't deserve to get a second chance.' It's now that your thinking of that kiss. If you had stopped then maybe Hoseok would forgive you. Did you really enjoy it that much to justify what you did next? or was it because someone made you feel wanted. If only it had been Hoseok and not Jin. You shudder. He's like a brother. Fuck he is his brother. That's the energy he was giving off to you too, 'until it wasn't'. He said he should have said something sooner. Well. Yeah. 'I just hope that Hoseok will understand. Its not like we are in a relationship, yeah we had sex but it wasn't a big deal for him so he doesn't really get a say.' Your telling yourself this but really your so fucking mad at yourself.

Someone puts their hands on yours, you didn't even hear anyone come in.
"Hey, are you ok?"
Throwing you head up, you almost get whiplash.
"Yeah, I'm fine" you say as you look into Yoongi's eyes. He's still holding your hands.
"You look a little lost in thought. Can I help?"
Laughing dryly, the last time you got help from a member you became a cheat. "No, no, I'm OK, really." You move back, resting your shoulders on the sofa. He doesn't move or take his eyes from you.
"It may seem I'm being informal with you, I hope you don't mind!" He waits for you to respond.
"No, I don't mind. I could always use more male friends, you up for that". It's your way of letting him know your not available for anything else. But maybe considering what happened with Hoseok you should be dead straight. "Hyung, I can only be friends, I can't offer anything else. I hope you understand".

He smiles his lovely gummy smile. "Yeah I get it, it's OK. I saw you and Hoba go into his room last night. Good for you two."
Shit he saw us. Fuck.
"I hope you guys will be happy. Its not going to be easy but as far as I know, no one else knows."
Your kind of relieved but at the same time your heart is hurting.
"Hyung, do you know where he is? I came to see him, we had a heated exchange, I need to speak to him" you ask.
"Well, that's one way of saying you went past the friendship line" he wiggles his brows. "Call him, he's always got his phone"
"Ah, Yoongi, you can't talk like that. No I mean" your feeling shy "after, we... we had an argument, kind of."