A Ninjago Oneshots Collection

Impulsive But Unwanted Death TW

TW: ATTEMPTED SUICIDE, SELF-HARM, SWEARING
Includes: Kai angst, and panic, fear, and panic
(Honestly, this is a really dark oneshot, just be careful alright? Ily guys 🫶)

I can't do this anymore... Kai sat against his set of drawers, ringing in his ears, blood dripping from his arms, glass in hand. Everything was blurry, spinning wildly in his eyes, and everything was so loud. He took a deep breath, and shook himself out of his state, trying to think over top of the dark tangled mess his mind had become.

This is fucking horrible, I won't last like this. Without thinking, he got up. His head spun more and for a moment everything went black, he thought he might faint. He leaned against his desk and accidentally knocked something over. When he regained his vision, he saw his pill bottle rolling towards his keyboard.

An idea impaled his mind.

His hand hesitantly reached over the bottle. Somehow, his mind drew a blank, yet it was screaming. It was protesting but it was cheering. It was dark but it grew light. He started to feel tingling in his fingers as he picked up the bottle. He gulped. He turned around and looked himself dead the eyes in the mirror, or at least, as best he could. He had smashed the mirror and told the others he had just dropped his phone when they called out to him from the living room. He had picked up a shard and dug it into his arm over and over. Tears spilled from his eyes and he tried his best not to sob, he picked up his pillow and bit into it to stop himself from screaming his lungs out.

He gave himself a small smile as he watched himself unscrew the lid. It didn't feel like he was the one in control anymore. Even if he wanted to stop, he wouldn't have been able to.

"This is it," Kai whispered to himself and closed his eyes from how painfully loud the screaming had gotten. He could hear his heartbeat in his ears. He downed the whole pill bottle in one, grabbed the glass of water on his bedside table, and drank down each pill.

His heart raced. He thought his chest might explode. Maybe his head too. And his ears. And himself.

The dread set in.

Oh my god... did... I just... I'm fucking killing myself.

Kai's breath quickened and caught in his throat as he gasped for air through his uncontrollable sobbing. He stumbled his way to the door. He wasn't ready. No, he just wanted help, he just wanted some love, he didn't want to die. His head spun with confusion, pain, panic, and fear, holy shit he was so fucking scared. Everything seemed to hurt so much more and he thought he would collapse right there.

"G-- GUYS!!" Kai managed to scream despite feeling as though his throat was on fire. He clung onto the wall of the hallway, desperate not to fall, but he tripped and crumbled to the floor, clutching his chest.

It didn't feel real. This couldn't possibly be happening, right?

"Kai? Is everything ok?" Zane looked around the corner of the living room and saw horror. A crumpled, sobbing Kai in the middle of the hallway, blood covering both of his arms, sobbing hysterically. "KAI!!" Zane jumped out of his seat and everyone panicked. He ran to the hallway, and the others looked around too.

"Holy shit, Kai!?" Cole followed Zane quickly, but Nya cut both of them off.

"Kai. What the hell is going on?" She spoke in a stressed, panicked tone. Kai just continued to sob and he looked like he was barely breathing. Everyone came over to his side, none of them had ever seen Kai so distraught.

Then, Kai opened his palm and an empty pill bottle rolled across the floor. All of them stared at him in shock.

"Kai-- HOLY SHIT KAI!! OH MY GOD CALL 111!!" Nya screamed at the others and everyone started panicking. Nya picked Kai up and everyone followed her out. Jay called after Wu and Pixal and they hurriedly ran out. One look at Kai in Nya's arms and they all jumped onto their elemental dragons. Zane called 111, telling them about Kai's state. Nya rode with Jay, far too terrified for her brother's life to summon a dragon. She held his hand and cried with him, pleading him to stay awake. Lloyd spoke to Kai from his dragon in a tearful voice telling him about how much all of them loved him and needed him. Everyone else was just trying not to sob out their worry.