The Love We Found. [A.H]

5. late night

-isabella's pov-

A few days ago since the day the girls almost ruined everything and me and Aaron have acted like it never happened, which is exactly what I want. I don't know what I feel about him or anyone for that matter. Jack is an amazing little guy but to date hotch would mean being a mother figure to jack, and I don't think I'm ready for that. I'm not ready for a relationship period. I let the girls have their fun because I want them to have fun, but I'm not interested in dating.

I'm not like Penelope or Derek who can have a relationship with this kind of work, I'm not like that, well not entirely, I can handle it, I just don't want it. I don't want to worry about something happening to him if we are working and vice versa. My personal feelings aren't supposed to be said, everyone thinks I'm an open book, but little do they know I cover everything up, and I do a good job of doing it. Some of that is from my childhood and some of it is from this job.

Overall I don't want to date anyone anytime soon, I want to focus on my book, and work, not a relationship with someone who doesn't even like me.

I don't realize I zoned out until I feel Emily shaking my shoulder. I shake my head and look at her. "Geez I didn't realize you could zone out for more than a minute, you zoned out for 10" she says and I shrug still slightly out of it. "Sorry, tried" I say hiding the real feelings. She nods and we go back to our work.

JJ and Emily leave around 6, Derek and Reid leave together at 6:15, Rossi got out at 5 and Penelope leaves earlier in the day because she had a doctor's appointment. So the only people in the office are me and Aaron. I continue to work on my book as I already have my paperwork done but I can really focus on my book right now so I don't care if it's late.

Around 11 I hear Aaron's office door open and close, I don't pay attention to it as I continue to write, as I'm so close to being done, and I'm trying to finish the last bit of it right now. When I feel Aaron's presence behind me, but I'm so close, so I ignore it and finish letting out a sigh, I turn around in my chair and find Aaron reading the page. "Can I pre-order it now?" He asks looking back at me and I let out a little laugh, "you want to read it?" I ask and he nods, "then I'll make sure you get the first copy, and just because I'll sign it too" I say jokingly and he lets out a little laugh. "Anyways it's late, so go home and get some rest" he says and I nod, he turns around to leave. "goodnight Aaron" I say using his first name. What I don't see with his back turned to me is the smile he has when I say that. "Goodnight Isabella" he says before leaving the bullpen.