The Love We Found. [A.H]

19. shopping

A few weeks go by and I'm still dull. I've had this month off and I'm grateful for that. But I end up sitting in Astrid's room crying. I'm broken and I don't know how to fix it. Aaron has come over more with Jack, as he lost his best friend, just like I lost my daughter. I've been watching him while the team has had a few cases throughout the month. It's been helpful actually to have him around, to be able to cheer him up. I know the team is struggling with that too, I mean Jack and Astrid are practically everyone's kids, they all help out with anything we need, they are their aunts and uncles. And with her being gone, it's like a hole is there. She definitely brought out the good in me, she made me be better, I had a reason to come home at the end of the day, and now it's just gone. I feel so many emotions that I don't know how to handle them. I sigh as I sit up on the side of my bed. I need to shower, I need to do something today. I slowly get out of bed and make it to the shower. This is my last day before going back to work. After my shower, I try to pick out something comfortable to wear. Black leggings, and a sweatshirt, I throw my hair back into a ponytail and put my shoes on. I'm just going to go to the bookstore, Target, and get lunch. I keep reminding myself of that. I get to the bookstore, a small local one that me and Reid go to all the time. To find Reid looking at the book, I haven't seen the team in a month, so for Spencer to hug me says a lot. “hi Spence” I say after he releases me. “Bella, are you okay? I'm sorry about what happened. It's so good to see you.” he says, I can tell he's kinda frazzled about seeing me. “Breathe, I'm getting better, it's gonna be okay, and I'm glad to see you too” I say and he smiles.

“What are your plans for today?” He asks. “Well I stopped here, then I'm going to target then going to lunch” I say and he nods. “Could I tag along, Maeve has to work, so I don't have anything to do” he asks and I smile. The thing about Reid is that he notices little things about stuff even if you don't realize that. “Sure, let me pick out my books then we can go to Target” I say and he nods. At Target, I helped him choose some sweaters and a little gift for Maeve as their six month anniversary is coming up soon. We end up at a little coffee shop that the team likes to go to, and there we find Emily, JJ, Penelope, Morgan and Aaron. I think this is planned, because I didn't tell anyone what I was doing, so maybe Reid texted them?  “Reid, did you plan this?” I ask him as we walk over. “Maybe” he says with a chuckle. I shake my head and sit down next to Aaron and Reid sits next to Morgan. This is not how I expected for this to go. I just wanted a quiet Sunday, but apparently not. “Reid said that you might still need some cheering up, so we have come to the rescue!” Penelope says and I smile. “thanks” I say.

It was actually not that bad, it was alright. When I get back to my apartment I see a little something on my kitchen table. A bouquet of flowers, a note, some of my favorite chocolates, and a picture frame. I already know who these are from. I open the note. It reads, Isabella, for everything that has happened to you, you still continue to fight and make the best out of the worst, and I'm always going to support you though this, we will fight this together, I promise you that. I smile and set the nite down and pic up the picture frame. It's from Christmas, Rossi made us take a picture of us, in our matching outfits. Aaron has Astrid and I have jack. Something I never would realize I'd miss so much. Every day sence the hearing makes my heart hurt. The fact that my team, my boyfriend cares so much about me, means more then I could ever imagine. I sit down with the picture frame and just look at it. The happy expressions on all of our faces, the way Aaron has been an amazing role model to Astrid, the way jack has his father's smile. The way Aaron looks genuinely happy, the way I look genuinely happy as well. The way everything has gone the last two months, that feels like a life time ago. I curl up into a ball clutching the picture frame to my chest as I just lay there. Replaying every moment with the three of them. I'm not mad that Aaron gave me this, I'm upset, yes, but happy, he's reminding me that even though this is hard and exhausting that there is something better, and I love him for that.

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So umm hey y'all, this is short and sweet chapter.