TADC AU - A New Life.

Chp 11: Down Memory Lane.

Jax standing in the mirror looking at himself. He takes off his Hoodie, having a black shirt on, he takes off his shirt, having multiple bruises all over his upper body, from his collar bone down to his abdomen

Bruises... From extension cords, belts, switches, 2×4s, bare knuckles... If it wasn't mounted down, I would be hit by it...
Jax turned around, facing his back towards the mirror, having bruises all over his back and sides
The bruises were so severe... That they never faded away... The doctor alone said I was lucky enough to not have any muscle damage...

Kid Jax hiding in the closet cowering in fear as he hears glass shattering

BECAUSE OF YOU! I'M A NOBODY!

I DIDN'T DO SHIT TO MAKE A NOBODY BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN A NOBODY SINCE THE DAY WE MET!

COMING FROM DRUG ADDICT LIKE YOU?! YOU DON'T HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT TO TALK ABOUT ANYBODY!

I'D FEEL THE SAME WAY IF I HAD A LIMP DICK TOO! HOW ABOUT YOU LEARN HOW TO BE A FUCKING MAN BETTER YOURSELF AND DROP THE FUCKING ALCOHOL!

FUCK WITH MY DRINKS AND I SWEAR TO GO ILL-

YOU'LL WHAT!?! YOU BEAT ME!? LIKE ANY OTHER MAN WHO'S TOO PUSSY TO BEAT ANOTHER MAN'S ASS BUT HAVE NO PROBLEM BEATING HIS FUCKING FAMILY! YOU SEE YOU DROVE AWAY JAXXY!

BECAUSE THAT LITTLE BITCH IS A SPITTING IMAGE OF YOU! HEAD TO FUCKNG TOE! ESPECIALLY THAT FUCKING MOUTH OF YOURS!

FUCK YOU! YOU LIMP DICK! NO SPERM-HAVING ASS SORRY EXCUSE OF A FATHER!

Suddenly the sound of the living room door slamming shut. Silence fills the silent house. Jax holding himself in a fetal position, suddenly the sound of heavy feet approaches the room with the sound of a jiggling belt buckle. Jax's eyes widened with fear as the foot approached his closet door, instantly the door was pulled open revealing the fear in Jax's eyes

You little shit!

The father grabbed him by his ankle and threw him onto the other side of the room, hitting the wall. Jax whispered in pain, he looked up, seeing his father looking down at him with his bloodshot eyes

D-dad I'm sorry! I didn't-

SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU LITTLE BITCH!
The father yelled as he proceeded to hit Jax with the metal end of the belt buckle. Jax screamed in pain as his skin began to turn red and break. Hitting his fragile body
MAYBE IF YOU WEREN'T SUCH A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT LIKE YOUR MOTHER AND SISTER, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME BEATING!

-10 Minutes Later-

Jax sitting in the corner of his room lying in a fetal position as his father looks down at him
Now... Make yourself useful and clean this damn house, I'm getting a drink and won't be back till morning! And if I see something out of place, you're getting it even worse!

The father walked out of the room and walked out of the house, slamming the door shut. Jax stood up, crying to himself softly as he was covered with cuts and blood drip

-The next day-

Jax standing on the stool making dinner over the stove
H-hey dad, I made you dinner! I hope you like it! The father comes out of the room with half a bottle of vodka gone

I made meatloaf and-
Wow, you made meatloaf! The father said angrily, he kicked the stool, knocking Jax over, he fell and landed on the leg of the stool and held his stomach in pain as his eyes began to tear up

You think that's something worth feeling proud about!? He reached into his leather jacket and pulled out an extension cord A DISABLED FATASS CAN MAKE THAT ON THEIR FIRST TRY!
He cocked his arms back and swung full force, hearing the speed of the extension cord in the wind as it hit Jax on the back. Jax screamed out in pain as he crawled away

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU RUNNING FROM!?!
The father said as he grabbed Jax by his arm. Jax began to hit him in the wrist, but sadly, having no effect only pissed him off even further
No, you're bold enough to swing on?!

The father suddenly threw Jax to the fridge, causing him to hit the back of his head against it.
YOU'RE JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER! QUICK TO TURN ON ME! LIKE THE OTHERS!

I-I'm sorry Dad! Pl-

Jax was quickly cut off as his father proceeded to beat him with his bare fist, only hearing the sound of Jax's weak whimpers and the punches landing against his body. Shortly after, the father stood up, breathing hard
Clean yourself up! I'm going to work

The father left the house, leaving Jax on the floor, battered and bruised

"But I still tried everything I could... Just to make my parents happy, even if they have beaten me to the point my teeth came out, I only ever wanted their love... I was abused by my parents for over a decade! Hoping they would be proud of me! Saying they're sorry for what they have done to me... But no... No! Druggy-filled mother! Alcohol driven father! I only wanted their love! That's all I ever wanted! But I never got a single chance... One day I found my dad's gun and at a young age, I knew what would happen if I pulled the trigger... So I pointed it at myself... Right at my neck, hoping that death would be a better place to be... But there was no bullet in the gun, I clicked that trigger multiple times, hoping... Praying something would take me away from this... Place, but no deal, I guess. So I just had to deal with the sad fact and continue with life'

'Behind my smile lie my fears
Behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm one of those you call fake
And the more I go the more I ache.
Blood boiled in every vain,
Like a flicker in every flame.
Tears streaming from my eyes,
Cause my life is built on lies.
I sat alone in the cold dark room
I knew that he would be home soon
I really wish that people knew
how much pain I was going through
Surrounded by walls
nowhere to go
walls are closing in
no more air flow'

"These poems solidify my life"

Jax opened his eyes, he leaned up, seeing the classroom empty
Oh right, forgot I went to school.

Jax! You're up! Pomni said as she was standing at the doorway
You didn't wake me up? He asked

I was but... You started mumbling about... Your family.
Jax's eyes quickly darted away, slightly angry
Jax... Are you... Okay? She asked

Yeah! Of course, I am! Never better he said as he stood up with his signature smile. Suddenly Pomni grabbed Jax's hand, grabbing his attention

Jax, I'm here for you. You know that, and I know, you're gonna say something about you being okay and good and fine and so... But just know, if you need someone to come to, someone you want to rely on, someone you want to hold on to and never let go, someone, you can express your hidden pain to... I'm here for you.

Jax eyes slightly widen but quickly closed
Pfft! Don't say some corn stuff like that ever again! He said jokingly

I'm serious! Now let's hurry up! School is about over with!
Pomni ran over to the doorway. Jax grew a slight smile

Heh, damn weeb!

At least she has a kind heart