Viva Las Vengeance

Blink Back to Let Me Know

** Brendon's POV **

Heading back to the venue, we are both lost in our own thoughts. Carlyn hasn't said much since we left Lenox Hill. I keep stealing glances at her, but she's hardly moved her head from the window.  How are we back here? Carlyn is pregnant and attending hospital appointments. At least I was the patient last time we were pregnant. What  I'd give to trade places with her to save her from all of this.  Is it too much to ask for a stress free pregnancy?

I don't know what to think. My brain is going 100 miles an hour with so many what-ifs. She looks so healthy   fact, she's fuckn glowing.

"Bren?  BREN?"
"Sorry?"
"We're here, at the venue. We need to get out of the cab."
"Sorry, Babe, I was lost in my thoughts."
"Look, Bren, you have a show in a few hours. You need to put this to the back of your mind and give the fans the show of their lives, ok?"
"That's easier said than done, Carly..."
"I know, babe, but worrying won't change anything. We just need to wait on the results coming back."
"I know, but I can't help it, Carly..."
"I know, Bren, but please try.."
"Ok, do we tell the guys what's going on?"
"No! Not until we have definitive answers, ok? I don't want anyone else worrying unnecessarily."
"Fine,"  I sigh. "Let's go see how the girls are. I'm sure Nic and Mike will think we've ran away.." I tell her, pressing my lips to hers, leading us out of the cab.

We can hear the noise from the dressing room as we're coming down the hall.
"Well, it certainly sounds like they're having fun. I dread to think what they've been up to. " I laugh as I open the dressing room door.
"DADDY!!!" Next thing I know, I'm being  attacked by two hyper girls.
"Ok? How much sugar have you fed my children?"
"Daddy, uncle Dan got us M&M's, Skittles, and sour patch kids..."
"Ava! We weren't supposed to tell..." Skai scolds her sister.
"Sorry, Skai."
"Hey Skai, you know we don't keep secrets from each other. Ava, it ok that Uncle Dan got you candy. It doesn't mean you have to eat them all at once. "
"Sorry, Daddy, I didn't want you to be mad at Uncle Dan."
"That's OK, baby..."
"Where's Mommy?" she asks, looking behind me.
"She had to go and collet some stuff from the tour bus. She'll be back in a minute. Did you two behave yourselves? I ask, raising an eyebrow at them.
"Yes! Daddy"
"Nicole, did they?"
"Of course they did. We played some games and they had some fun with the instruments.  Is Carlyn OK?" She asks, concerned.
"She's fine. We're just waiting on some blood results coming back. Hopefully, we should have them soon."
"Is everything ok towards the baby?" Mike asks.
"Yes, he's absolutely fine" I tell them, handing them the sonogram pictures from earlier to look at.

It's 15 minutes before showtime. To look at Carlyn, you would never know that anything was going. She's been seeing to myself and the girls as she normally would. I don't know know where she gets her strength from. When I had my accident a few years ago, she was amazing. I know it wasn't easy for her being pregnant, dealing with me being in a coma and then the shit show that followed after that. I actually feel physically sick thinking about the possibilities in front of us. The thought of our pre show shot is not making me feel any better.  As we gather in our crcle, I silently ask if she's heard anything. She shakes her head to let me know we're still waiting. We've been together so long  that it's easy to communicate with each other with facial expressions rather than words, which comes in handy with two little people around.

Walking towards the stage,  I am carrying Skai whilst Carlyn has Ava. Both girls kiss me good luck before running to their special area at stageside.
Pulling Carlyn into my chest and wrapping my arms around her, I hear her say
"Have a great show, Babe."
"I'll try. Are you doing ok, Carly?"
"I'm good, Bren. Just focus on the show, ok?"
"Ok. I love you, babe." I say into our kiss
"Love you too, Bren."
With that, she heads towards the girls and it's showtime.

**After the Show**