illicit affairs | matt sturniolo

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2 weeks later

"hey!" nick said walking into the venue. "oh my good hi!" i said giving him a hug. "i missed you so much we have so much to talk about" he said. "y'a of course! come with me" i said leading him into my dressing room.

"i'm so excited to hear the album" he said. "i'm nervous for you to listen to it" i laughed. "so you just answered my next question" he laughed.

"is it every song about matt?" he asked. "i mean kinda, i dont know, well i do know it's just i don't know i feel weird awkward even talking about it" i laughed. "don't feel awkward, just think about it like old times" he said.

"y'a ok,fine everything is about matt, but they're really good songs and i'm super proud of every single one of them" i said. "you know i'm proud of you too, and so is chris, even matt even though he won't admit it" he said

"your on in 5" my manager said. "i'll see you out here right?" i asked him. "of course that's why i'm here right?" "thanks for coming nick" i said giving him a hug. "i would never miss it" he

"hey everyone!" i said. "thank you guys so much for coming! so tonight is the first time anyone will hear the album" i said and he fans were cheering.

"no one knows that it's coming so that's why i would please love for it if you guys didn't film anything but like drivers license and shit" i said

"so the album comes out on december 19th and it's called sour" i said. "that's in two weeks oh my god!" this girl said. "yes it is" i laughed. "and i promise you all that i will answer all of your questions" i said.

"will there be tour?" a girl asked. "yes there will be" "i'm i gonna cry through the whole album?" another girl asked.

"i mean my best friend adi did so maybe?" i laughed. "everyone shut the fuck and let her sing!" a person said. "ok!"i laughed

"so this is brutal it's the first track and it's one of my favourites to be honest"
"I'm so insecure, I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me, and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
'Cause who am I, if not exploited?
And I'm so sick of 17
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
"Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more
All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
(Yeah!)
I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
'Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park
All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
(Yeah! Just having a really good time)
Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it's brutal out here)
And God, I don't even know where to start"