illicit affairs | matt sturniolo

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today i'm in la, what a surprise and i'm meeting with benson boone to discuss, i guess the song we're doing for his album? i mena that's what i was told.

i walked into his studio and was greeted by him. "hey, i'm benson, big huge fan by the way" he laughed. "big fan of yours too" i smiled. "so i've always wanted to do a song with you because you are a lyrical genius, i mean logical is my favorite song at the moment and i was wondering if we can write and do a song. together for my album" he said nervously.

"y'a 100 percent" i said. "so i kinda already had a concept, like a relationship breaking apart after being together for so long" he said

"perfect timing, me and my boyfriend actually just broke up" i smiled awkwardly. "oh my god i-" "don't even it's all good, all my friends helped me through it and made me feel so much better about it" i said.

"my girlfriend loves you by the way" he blurted out to change the subject. "to be honest your girlfriends videos with her dad are my favourite thing ever" i said

"i'll tell her" he smiled

after a lot more of talking we came out with the idea of cry

"this is insane" he said. "i'm obsessed" i said. "ready to record?" his producer asked and we both nodded our heads.

"and by the way i would love it for you to come out and sing this song with me on my tour if you want" i said. "that would be a dream" he smiled

benson
lexi
both

I tried to hide it through the silence while I played along
I'm welling up behind my eyelids when I'm holding on
To the rage, so badly, I hate it
And I wish that all of-
Nah, nah, nah, that doesn't feel right
Maybe, uh, speed it up
Yeah, that's nice
I really hate the way you think that you can get away
By blaming all your stupid problems on your mental state
I'm tired of burnt-out lies, ooh
You think you know me, but you hardly even know yourself
I'd bite my tongue and let you think I only wish you well
I don't, I know you know it, ooh
And I'm tired of letting someone get the best of me, so go ahead and-
Cry, cry
Go ahead and ruin someone else's life
Cry, cry
Go bug somebody else, so I can sleep at night
Mmm, you're more narcissistic than anybody in Hollywood
You're not a misfit, don't keep sayin' you're misunderstood
I'm tired, oh, I'm so tired, ooh
And maybe you're the honest type
And it's been me the whole damn time
I should really try to calm my mind and see things from your side
Or, maybe you can
Cry, cry
Go ahead and ruin someone else's life
Cry, cry
Go bug somebody else, so I can sleep at night
Cry, cry
Go ahead and ruin someone else's life
Cry, cry
And I'm tired of letting someone get the best of me, so go ahead and-
Cry, cry
Go ahead and ruin someone else's-

we both high five each other because it was so good. "thank you so much for coming i really appreciate it and you" he smiled. "thank you for wanting me to" i smiled

i said thank you to everyone and went to my house. i wrote two songs. what the fuck.

i called over adi and the triplets for them to hear the two songs and they came over straight away.

"do you want the sad one first or the other sad one with a happier beat?" i asked them. "sad frost and then happy" nick said answering for all of them, they all nodded their heads in agreement. and i went to my piano.