illicit affairs | matt sturniolo

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i just flew in from la to dublin for the first night of the europe leg of the tour. i'm all by myself this time around though. so  it's kinda of different.i miss matt, a lot.

and another reason why to stress is that the high school music series people asked me to write another song in two freaking days.

and a break up song form a guys perceptive. how the freak am i supposed to do that. unless i like make it formosa my personal life and what matt thinks of me.

so i walked into this random ass studio in dublin. mark and booked me a session to work on the song and i went in. there was a piano there and a mic stand. all i needed was a harry or a dan but i think i could figure this out on my own. hopefully.

i started playing some cords on the piano to see what i could do. then i found something that i actually like and started playing it over and over again.

"close the book before it turns to tragedy" i sang softly. "tear the treehouse down, give up the fantasy."

"nothing to regret, since the day we met. glad we took a chance makin' our own world" and started to vamp up a little.

"perfectly imperfect like it had to be"i shook my head. "who thought that one first kiss, would turn into two heart breaks?"

"cause since we were young i swore, that i'd never walk away" "i love you so much that i've got to let you go" "it couldn't last forever." and i hope you find better" " i can't forget us and i can't pretend we ain't broken" "it was good together" "now i've got to let you go" i said shedding one single tear on the piano before i continued the song making process.

"I'll always be in love with who we used to be
I'll save the photographs and keep the memories
The ribbon in your hair, the secrets that we shared
The way that you would stare at me across the room
We laughed until we cried, it feels like yesterday" i played

"Who thought that one first kiss
Would turn into two heartbreaks?
'Cause since we were young, I swore
That I'd never walk away
I love you so much that I've gotta let you go
It couldn't last forever
And I hope you find better
I can't forget us, can't pretend we ain't broken
It was good together
Now I've gotta let you go"

"I'm pickin' up pieces left and right
Now that our hearts are both untied
It'll take time, it'll take time
No one can say we didn't try
I'll think of these days all my life
It'll take time, it'll take time
I love you so much that I've gotta let you go
It couldn't last forever
And I hope you find better, yeah
I can't forget us, can't pretend we ain't broken
It was good together
Now I've gotta let you go" i need off the whole song.

and now let's see if i remember it enough to record it! and i did so. thank god i brought my laptop so that i could send it over to my team.

i got up for the piano still and made sure to grab all my stuff. i was texting all my friends saying that i finally finished this song but then i absolutely bashed into someone. "oh my god i am so sorry" i said. "are you bleeding?" the guy said in a very irish accent.

i looked up from the ground to look at a guys face. "um-i it's ok" i said feeling the blood coming from my nose. i guess my nose hit really hard on my mac.

"here let me help you" he said. he picked up the papers that i dropped and my notebook and brought me to the bathroom cause i don't know where the fuck it is.