Anxiety is Nick's worst enemy

chapter 1

~ Nick's POV ~

It's a schooldag but as i wake up i immediately get this heavy feeling in my chest and my heart is already racing. I pull the covers over my head, i already can't do it today, i can't deal with this.

As i'm laying there with my head under the covers trying not to cry, i hear a knock on the door. "Honey are you up? you need to get ready for school" my mom yells through the door. All i manage to get out is an annoyed "ughh no." My mom immediately opens the door "are you okay?" i really don't want to cry so early in the morning so i just nod. But apparently that wasn't very convincing because my mom sits down on the bed next to me and i sit up.

"Sweetie what's wrong?" my mom asks me in the softest voice. I can't hide it anymore and i just start crying "i c-can't d-do it t-to-day" i manage to get out between sobs. My mom hugs me "it's okay if it's too much, just stay home and take it easy today and take a few deep breaths honey." I take a few deep breaths and let myself fall back on the bed. "It's okay if you can't do it today Nicky." Those words are always nice to hear on days like this, i hug my mom and tell her thank you. "i'm off to work but please call me if you need anything baby." "i will mom i love you." She gives me a kiss and tells me i love you and then leaves for work.

I immediately go to text Charlie:

                                 'Char❤️'
7:51am: hi Char
7:51am: i'm staying home today xx

                        7:53am: okay, i'll miss you :(
                        7:53am: are you okay though?

7:53am: yeah just don't feel to well

                        7:54am: do you want me to come
to yours after school?

7:55am: sure

I put my phone down and lay back under the covers in bed. I really don't want to deal with these anxious feelings, i hate this. I turn my lights off and just decide to go back to sleep, i feel horrible.

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~ Charlie's POV ~
After the longest schooldag ever, trying to get through it without Nick by my side, i'm finally done. I arrive at Nick's house and the whole house is just silence, i go upstairs to Nick's room and when i open the door i see my beautiful boyfriend sleeping, he looks so peaceful it's adorable.

I decide to cuddle up next to him and as i give him a kiss on the cheek his eyes flicker and he starts to wake up. He looks at me with the most cutest smile "hmm hi." We both sit up and i give him another kiss before i respond "hi baby, how are you?"

The moment i ask this question i see Nick's face change, his smile disappears and tears start falling on his cheeks. I hug him "hey it's okay what's going on?" I see his hands shaking but decide not to mention it and wait for his responds. "b-bad a-anxiety" he tells me while crying.

"do you want to talk about it." i ask while hugging him and not letting go, but neither does he so i think he really needs it. He doesn't say anything he just shakes his head no and hugs me even tighter. "that's okay, it will be okay Nick" i try to reassure him, knowing that anxiety feels like torture and is definitely not okay. We just cuddle up in bed and at some point we're both asleep.