The Merge || Lloyd x Reader

The Crossroads

It has been 3 years since the merge...

I was found by a frog named Frohickey, who gave me a place to stay as I told him my story. I was easily recogniseable, I was the infamous girlfriend of the Green Ninja, undoubtably a great title, Lloyd loved me so much that he never wanted to hide the fact I was his girl, emphasis on the was.

The day of the merge, I was in a wedding dress, a dress that was no longer white because I had run away from my own wedding, my purity and innocence had been dirtied up with reality and heartbreak. I had to turn away from the love of my life, my family, my friends, my entire life I had ever known and the only people I had ever known. Did I mention I made this decision in about 5 seconds? What an impulsive decision that led me to where I am now.

The further I ran the further my life became life changing. I stopped at a familiar place. A meadow that I frequented, no body knew about this place, not even Lloyd, this was my serenity whenever Ninjago and the ninja became too much. It was my escape, I collapsed on the ground and started to sob, animals that lived in the meadow surrounded me. They comforted me, what sentient and emotionally intelligent animals they were, I felt a great drowsiness on me and I fell asleep.

When I woke up, the animals could speak words instead of their calls, there were creatures that were nothing like I had seen before, the meadow was filled with vegetation I had never seen. I looked at the world that had turned on its head, becoming an entire civilization of blended cultures, creatures from all the known and unknown realms. I stared at the world around me, it had begun again, it was all new exciting and undiscovered. Just like me...

In the beginning, I was a heartbroken girl with despair clouding my judgement and no idea what was ahead of her. The world had changed and no body knew what to do, so in a way, confusion became normality, discovery and fear became constant curiosity and adventurous pursuit and I began to heal myself and find who I was.

I changed everything about me, my hair was a completely different color and length, I dawned a welder's mask that sat comfortably on my head or neck, I wore contacts all the time, I cut my dress into more practical clothes. I changed every aspect of myself to look indistinguishable to my old self. I couldn't recognize myself and I liked it. But to show how many emotions you feel is indescribably difficult, when you have to face each day knowing you're not who you really are, that your past is under lock and key in your mind, but you constantly remember it. It gets harder when you have to wear what was basically your wedding dress every single day. The only clothes I could wear was my wedding dress, I didn't know where my home had gone or if it was still in this realm, so I made do with what I had.

Every day I flash back to before the wedding, seeing Nya and Skylor smiling at me in my dress, all dolled up while Misako looks at me with tears forming in her eyes, she was the mother I never had. In that moment I was happy, I felt like the prettiest girl in the whole world, and I was about to vow my life to Lloyd Garmadon, the love of my life.

All these happy memories disappear, everything comes at a cost, I remember the nightmare, the white and red fox bursting in to kiss Lloyd, as she transformed into a girl named Akita. As she told her tale, her past with Lloyd, I saw how he looked at her, he studied her, it was different, yet the same way he looked at me. I could see the glimmer in his eyes once he saw her, the loss of words over her presence, I knew in that moment, he didn't love me as much as he loved her, and I couldn't keep him from her. I let them be with each other and I just ran, never looking back.

I remember the betrayal, the pain, all the emotions of hurt, confusion and sadness of that day and I remember every wave of emotion from that day, every day, like a personalized purgatory catering to my greatest fears and insecurities.

I had transformed into a completely different person, a person who left her past behind her. I couldn't let what happened hold me back, after all, the world didn't stop when I ran away from my wedding, and it certainly didn't stop when the merge happened a few hours following it.

A big part of my life became being a mother figure to two energetic, smart, enthusiastic kids, Sora and Arin. They are the lights of my life, I cared for them dearly, I never thought I could love someone as much as Lloyd, but the duo proved me wrong. When Frohickey came to my penthouse with the two kids, I could see both had stories to tell. A dark past, a sad tale and stolen youth, my heart broke and I vowed I would give them all the love they deserved.