𝑴𝒆𝒍𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑰𝒄𝒆 | 𝒈𝒙𝒈

𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑯𝒖𝒓𝒕

Everything she said hurt. Every word, every syllable, it all just hurt.

I've been told worse things, far worse than this, but nothing ever hurt me like that.

I think if someone slit my throat it would hurt less than this.

I was always pretty damn good at judging character, reading people, knowing who they are and what they want before they even knew. But this time I was wrong, so so fucking wrong, and so fucking stupid.

I let myself get soft and...vulnerable, I let her march straight through the gates of my heart and it turned out to be a colossal mistake.

That's why I don't fucking do soft and vulnerable.

It was my mistake to trust her, to tell her things, intimate things about myself, to let her have power over me.

It was time to regain my fucking dignity, at least what's left of it. So I pushed down all my sad pathetic thoughts and replaced them with anger.

With pure fucking rage.

If she wanted a sick game, that's what she's gonna fucking get. Because everyone always gets what they want.

I gave her a narrowed look, hoping she'd take the hint that I really want her to fucking leave. It was either she left or she'll be getting throughly, roughly, brutally fucked.

She shook her head and spoke "Im not leaving—" okay then, I guess it's fucking show time.

"Fine, then let's this shit over with, take your clothes off" I commanded with a firm tone and pulled the sweater I was wearing over my head. I was fucking livid by now, and I hope she could tell by my tone that I was dead fucking serious. If she thinks I'm playing a sick game that's exactly what she's gonna get.

"What?" Her eyes widened in confusion but I didn't falter.

"Now you're getting shy? Fine, I can still do it with your clothes on" I spat, I had to treat her like a whore because if I didn't I'd probably start fucking crying. Besides, it's what she wanted, no?

I took my top off so I was left now only in my white lace bra "You can win the sick game, tell everyone you fucked the great Alex Carmichael. I hope you're as good as the reputation you have, I don't do mediocre fucks" I chuckled at my words, my eyes now glued to her.

"Alex" she whispered, funny how a minute ago she was yelling at me.

"I think you should be on your stomach and I'll finger you from behind while I choke you" the picture in my mind was awful, it wasn't at all what I imagined fucking Emily would be, but if that's what she wants I can do it. "It'll be great if you scream you don't want me to touch you, just to make it as dehumanizing as possible because that's how I get off" I sneered and after she didn't react I realized maybe she wanted something else "But if you want to we can do something else, would me eating you out give you more points? I could also get the strap if that's what you're into. I really don't give a shit, you're just a conquest so pick however you want to be conquered" I was running out of ideas, what a fucking shame.

"Alex I'm sorry—"

"No there's no need for that, just turn around so we can get this over with, you're just a name on my list" I was so furious my entire body was shaking. I could feel it in my hands and my legs, I couldn't stay fucking still. On top of that it seemed like eyes stopped fucking functioning because I couldn't even notice her reactions. For the first time in forever I didn't notice every wrinkle that formed on her face. It's like my eyes stared at her but my brain was not getting any of the information.

"Alex" she whispered again, too much talking for my taste, too little fucking.

"You can lie and say it happened in my room, no one's ever been there so that will definitely make you a lot more popular than the rest of the people I fucked, I don't fucking care"