tears on my scars.

another failed attempt of letting you go.

This feels like heaven
I feel like god
This feels like hell
I can feel my horns.

You come and go
Like seasons
Still my love for you is the same
Staying perennial.

You talk to me for fun
I talk to you for you're my sun
Thought I had watched you rise
But it was just a fading sunset.

Your eyes look at me with a strange emotion
I can't interpret your notion
I feel like it's love
Even when you made it clear that it's not.

Girls like me love monsters like you
There's not even a tinge of regret or rue
For a monster is no more a monster
When you love it.

I wish for redamancy
I wish for you to come with me
Be it to the gates of death
Or the paths of history.

I sent you flowers
You rotted them in return
I gave you my heart
You tore it up in chambers.

I can't hold enough of you in my hands
I can't hold enough of you in my sight
I want more of you
Even though you gave me more than you even had.

I can't stop the tears from my eyes
They continue falling
I'm still standing where you left me
I'm still waiting for you to come someday and claim me as you said.

I want to touch you
But I know I won't feel
For my senses have already been knocked out
And I'm lying lifeless on the ground.

I'm just a dim star in your universe
The other stars shine bright
I stay here even though there's no need
I'll be there when the light darkens.

The day I die
Is the day I move on
The day I die
Is the day you can move on.

I'm forgetting my identity
Making a show of my dignity
I just want you
And I'm willing to give you anything and everything.

Love is a knife
That I'll gladly stab myself with
For it will have the poison of your name on it
Decaying me to death.

My longing for you is unfathomable
My love is desperate
I will wait for you until I die
I will always smile for you until you make me cry.

I don't do miracles
But your eyes have a glint in them
That might make me possessed by powers
And make me do the things I always wanted to do.

I don't want to think of sad things
But you leave me with nothing
Than just making me sad
And leaving me while I scream at the nightstand.

If you smile, I smile
If you'd cry, I'd cry
You and I are one for me
I would always love us the same all the time.

I'm not scared because you would leave me
I'm scared for I won't be able to defy destiny
I would always blame the god
For sending you into my life when we weren't supposed to be.

My tears fell
My smile died
The things that I actually intended to say
Once again, were left unsaid.