tears on my scars.

only the memories stay.

I remember the day we met
It was the month of April
You came in shades of blue and white
I saw heaven in your eyes.

You sat in front of me
I striked the pen at your back
And asked you the time
Knowing that I was about to commit the worst crime.

You blushed a little
Tried to hold back a smile
You glanced at the watch
And told me the time.

I don't remember it intact
I'm slowly forgetting
But I still can reminscise the butterflies that you gave me
And the crinkling of your eyes.

I was enjoying the moment
I enjoyed teasing you
Cracking jokes and making fun of you
Unbeknownst to the reality that I was about to fall in love with you.

Classes passed
We both grew up
But whenever I saw him
I once again became that dumb lovestruck silly girl.

I haven't forgotten the day
When you came and sat beside me
To explain that one question
Which I couldn't solve.

You looked straight in my eyes
I don't know how you didn't crack a smile
For I swear to god
I couldn't hold on to my life.

You made me so damn nervous
My pen fell off my hand
My brain fell off my head
I nodded like a stupid girl having no idea about what you just said.

I was too busy
My mind was too dizzy
To even look at what you taught
For there went my heart, it was caught.

My friends laughed and screamed
Recording us and shit
You told me about them
And I cursed because you said.

That was the day when I realised
I wanna study more than what I find
I wanna learn about you
I wanna see you in every room.

Do you remember that doubt class of physics?
It was only you and me
And that teacher who was a meme
It wasn't really beneficial for my studies but at least you met me.

You made me wait for an hour or more
When I lost hope
I went out of the room
Only to see you standing there, signing at the entry.

You were crouched down
And then you looked up at me
With a gaze so magical
And an aura so divine.

It was love at a sight
I was covered in shades of love
I saw the love of my life
I saw the man for whom I'd die.

I was too love drunk to even say come in
So you walked in on your own
I followed you mindlessly
Like I was drunk on hennessy.

You said come sit with me
I dropped my bag and tried to ease my breath
I told you I just wasn't feeling well
It was true though, for you made my heart swell.

I felt like throwing up
I was high on nausea
I ate a toffee and drank water
But I just got hotter.

I was trying to study
Acting all crazy
But I know
That you saw me.

You kept your bag on the other side
And I wanted to hide
For I wasn't good enough
To be in your eyes.

It all went so good
Until I confessed
And messed up the whole thing
Fucked up our friendship.

Things happened in between
Sometimes sour, sometimes sweet
But I wanna forget them
As much as I wanna remember them.

Now I'm lying on your blocklist
You ended it all on text
Without even a goodbye
In your way.

I'm left alone now
Your memories are the only thing I own
I lost the game
I never won.

You want me to move on
But I can never accept you as a stranger
I'd rather cry at nights
And be heartbroken for life.

I thought you were the one
The one who walked in my life
And made me realise why it didn't work out with others
But now you're just another one of the others.

I still think that you're the one
Even though I'm not the one for you
The first poem that I wrote wasn't about you
But it still was about you.