tears on my scars.

ashes to ashes.

Ashes to ashes
From rises to crashes
You never stayed
Just watched me fall
From a distant frame.

I can't blame you
I can't blame anyone
For it was me
Who fucked this whole thing up.

Believed that I found myself in you
Blinded from the reality that I lost myself in you
Look at me
What do you see?
A high soul or a low body?

My hands are tied
My mouth is sewn
My heart beats no more
And my brain died.

From breaking expectations
To breaking down
I did come a far way round
By all these chains called love, I am bound.

I don't want to live anymore
But I am already dead
For my soul died long ago
Resting in hell.

Clocks keep on ticking
I keep on getting older
I am no longer the young and beautiful girl
But rather a rotten ghoul.

I can't see my loved ones cry
But I can't lose you too
I'm stuck in a dilemma
And I can't see myself getting out of it any soon.

I lit my own universe on fire
Watched it burn
I did it all by myself
Even the gods can't help.

I think this is my last life
My last time
For I lost all the enthusiasm and joy
No more interested in being coy.

I'll tear the skin off my body
I'll pluck my eyes out of their sockets
I'll stab myself in the heart
I'll drown myself in the deep waters.

I'll cry until my eyes go dry
I'll laugh until my throat gets hoarse
I'll scream until I can't hear
I'll bang my head until I go numb.

I have no will
I have no way
Neither did they get what they wanted from me
Nor did I.

I am not shocked
Because I always knew this day will come
Taking my last breath
As in the deep waters, I burn.