tears on my scars.

it hurts sometimes but i love you still.

The cage is open
But I don't know how to fly
There's no leash on me
But I don't know how to run.

Before I saw you
I liked to be alone
I liked to be myself
But now all I wanna be is you.

It hurts so much
When I realize
That there's no use
Of me telling you how much I love you.

You don't know the letters I've written for you
Even if I'd send them to you you'd never know
Even if I see you again
I won't see you again.

I deserved a better goodbye from the people who left me
I deserved a better hi from the people who met me
I deserved everything at that time
But it's not worth having when you can't be mine.

There's not even an ‘almost’ in our relationship
That haunts me every second
That it would all just end
When it would be about to begin.

Maybe in another universe
I have you in my life more than just a friend
We live on the west coast
And home finally feels like home.

Look at me
Being heartbroken over a love story that didn't even exist
Being insane to stay sane
Being inhuman to stay human.

I can't bear being apart from you
I am not destined to be a part of you
I see fireworks in the sky when I look at you
I feel crazy when I hear you.

Your laugh melts me like fire melting ice
Your voice drives me mad like fire on water
Suddenly I'm not my father's daughter
Suddenly all of my problems don't bother.

All the ways lead to you
All of my days feel incomplete without you
I lie sometimes to stay true
I just can't let you know that I cry when I think about you.

Sometimes I overthink so bad
I feel the pain in my chest
But then I think about your hand in my hand
And slowly, everything gets back.

Like a butterfly
You also don't know that you're so beautiful
But that's exactly what makes us humans
For I can see that you're the prettiest
I wish you could see yourself the way I saw you.

This world's so big
But I still found you
Even of all of the paths
The one on which we'd meet, I'd choose.

You might go
But when you leave
That moment, right there
Would stay.

I can't take my eyes off you
I keep looking at you
I keep admiring your beautiful eyes, your cute nose, your pretty smile, your perfect hair and your kind personality
You're the bestest that I've ever seen.

You make my soul warm in winters
You make my soul cool in summers
You make my worst days
The best of days.

I thought people like you were unreal
For there are no people like you
You're the first one
And you've won.

Thank you for being there
Even when you're not there
I feel you right there with me
Thank you for staying.

I don't miss anyone
I never do
But you're different and new
I wake up all night missing you as if I'm a puzzle with a lost piece without you.

As long as I'm alive
You don't have to worry
For I'm here to love you unconditionally
I'm here to give you my best poetry.

You're my favorite notification
You're my favorite call
You're my favorite person
You're my favorite of them all.

I don't see myself with anyone else but you
I don't even wanna see myself with anyone until it's you
You're the every lovely word that I could possibly think of
You're the poem that the victorian poets dreamt of.

Loving you is still love
Even though you don't love me in return
Praising you is still devotion
Even though you're not god.

You make the myosin proteins in my brain
Drag endorphin along a filament
Into my head’s parietal cortex
Which makes me feel happiness.

Let's meet in our dreams every night
For I miss you just a little too much
And I can't get you out of my mind
I wanna talk to you all the time.

I'll wait as long as forever to be with you
Even though I'm the most impatient person
I'll stay for you
Even if I'll have to wait my whole life, I'll wait.