tears on my scars.

my heart.

I tried
I was tied
No regrets
No lies.

In the best of times
I lost my mind
I do not remember what you said
But I can never forget the way it felt.

I can hate all of you for what you've done
And what you've become
But I can still love you for what you were
And what you did.

I'm afraid
That I'll love you forever
Till the end of infinity
And to transfinity.

You'll look for me in another person
I wish so
I need to believe
That at least you and I walked through the same street.

Perhaps someday, somewhere
We'll meet again
In good times
With no crimes.

If only this pretence was true
I would have been in shades of cool
In the rain which was blue
Unbothered, I stood.

As much as I love chrysalism
I love getting drained out in the rain
With my tears rushing down
Into the drain.

In this moment, there's nothing that I can do
But to just bury my love for you
Alive and screaming
Dead and gleaming.

There are times
When I miss you in a quiet tranquilised manner
There are times
When I miss you in an inhuman manner.

I know I will always think of you
With a tinge of regret and rue
A bit of nostalgia too
And some tears that stay aloof.

I wanna imprison your every breath
I wanna capture your every heartbeat
But still I set you free
For I want to see you in nature, in the autumn leaves.

I lie on a floor made of glass
Nothing below, nothing above
I'm a prisoner with no bars
I just wanna feel your old warmth.

I feel lonely in the dark
But it shields me
More than it threatens
It's my voice to the heavens.

You hurt me
Because you mattered to me
Maybe in another life, I'll sing lou reed
And you'll listen to me.

No poet, no body
Can ever measure
How much love my heart can hold for you
Had destiny known, it would never have been so cruel.

I am not here to serve
I am here to rule
You are just like me
We both are breaking hearts in two.

My heart is my only country
For you reside in it
Life's unfair, isn't it?
I wish that we could switch.

Had it been sadness, I would've cried
Had it been anger, I would have screamed
Had it been happiness, I would've smiled
But it's love, and love without a lover is like a clock without time.

My heart is broke
But it hasn't been loved
It still stays stuck in my ribs
I can't feel you on my lips.

Once you come in
You can't get out
For a heart wants what it wants
And I need what I can't have.

I don't know if I have the desire to show
Or the desire to hide
Should I keep you close to me?
Or should I let you out in the light?

He hurt me but it felt like true love
I could never have enough
I am still stuck in our memories
I'm still young.

You're the character of my stories
The muse of my poetry
Am I getting crazy?
Or are you really talking to me?

You talk to me in my poems
You feel like a mural in rome
You feel like a magic store
You feel like home.

You don't have the power
To make me stay
But you have the power
To make me want to stay.

It makes me wanna die at times
Rip my heart apart
Even when you go far
I can hear you laugh.