Yours Only (n.g)

Chapter 8

Nash's POV.

*flashback*

I laid Rebecca on my bed and after a while, she passed out. I felt so guilty for torturing her and being so bad to her. I felt that everything that happened in my life were so wrong. I wanted to get everything straight, but I just really can't.

She totally changed me. I had no idea why, but she had that impact to my life.
And from that, I promised myself to stop hurting her and start controlling myself instead of her life.

I kissed her forehead and hope that she wasn't notice. Then I walked away from my room and left.

*flashback ends*

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I was totally depressed and hated myself. Why am I alive? I thought I should died already.

To decrease my depression, I decided to go to my old mansion which already broken and shattered.

I used to live there when I was five with my parents and my brother, Hayes, but that mansion was burned down and it killed my parents and since that, Hayes lived with my aunt. I was so depressed, sad, mad, upset, and much more. I didn't know what else should I do with my life and that incident changed my whole life. I was totally mad and I wanted people to feel my pain. That's the reason why I often hurting people around me.

But none of my friends knew about that story.

There was a beautiful lake near the mansion. Because the mansion was burned, I could see the lake from the top of the mansion.

I spent my days there doing nothing but thinking about things, including Rebecca.

Should I let her go?

I knew I was wrong for hurting her and tortured her but when I first saw her, I just can't control myself. I was mad, and anger was controlling me.

Two days had passed and I hadn't gone back to my apartment. I didn't want to, because I was still mad at myself.

Surprisingly, Rebecca was here.

"Nash!" she shouted.

I looked at her and she was running closer to me.

"Why are you here?" she asked me sympathetically, "Oh no, you look so pale"

Our eyes were locked and that was when finally I felt guilty even more. I also felt that I was being controlled by her eyes.

"Nash what's wrong?" she asked me.

"Why are you here?" I coldly responded.

"Because everyone is worrying about you so me and Taylor are trying to find you" she explained innocently.

"So Taylor is here too?"

"Yeah but he's not on this floor"

"Listen, I'm so sorry for everything. I know I'm just a bastard and I wish you forgave me," I finally began to speak.

"N-nash" she responded, "I already forgive you"

My eyes went wide for a while but then they were back to normal again.

"Thank you" I said and I was about to jump to the lake.

"NASH, NO!" she screamed and hugged me from the back.

"Why? My life is too pointless" I replied with a sad tone, "It's useless, Rebecca"

She shook her head, "No, it isn't. Can you please stop and come back home?"