Watercolour

Fourteen

Alex's P.O.V

She waited until Harvey was down the path before turning on me.

"What the hell was that?!" She snapped, slamming the door and turning around to face me.

"I... he... he sai-"

"What the hell was that?" she repeated, confusing me. Was she still asking me or was she just shouting into the open air.

"Alana, I'm sorry... I jus-"

"What the hell?" Alana breathed. She stared at me as she ran her fingers through her hair and let out a big sigh of despair.

"I don't want to hate you Alex, but at the moment you're making it really hard for me."

"I don't want to hate you either. I just wish that-"

Suddenly, she switched. She no longer seemed open to discussion. "I don't really care about what you want, Alex. This world does not revolve around you. You're jus-"

"Look, I knew from the start that he liked you... I just don't think he's the right guy for you."

"Why? What's wrong with him? What's the problem that you have with him?"

"I just have a feeling... there's something wrong about him."

"It's not that simple, Alex. You can't just have a feeling and expect me to not like Harvey anymore..."

"That's not what I meant..."

"Then what? What did you mean? Did you mean that it's jealousy? Are you jealous?"

"What? No..."

"Alex Caden Wolfe, look me in the eyes and tell me that this isn't about you being jealous," she said, slowly shaking her head.

I sighed. I couldn't lie about this... not to Alana.

"Why didn't you just tell me? I had to find out from... like this."

"What did you want me to say? "Oh hey, Alana-""

"No but you could have let me know somehow. I'm not completely oblivious you know?"

"Forget it."

"What do you mean forget it? You just did that to Harvey and now you're telling me to forget it!?"

"Now you're making this all about him! You don't even know what happened!?" I said, realising that I had raised my voice without meaning to.

"I'm not the one making it about him, Alex. It has always been about him for you... ever since the day you met him."

"How?!"

"Alex... you're the only person that has a problem with him. No-one else does; Lucas, Jace, Charley, Jemma, Nathan... none of them."

"You know what? You're just angry at me because I just remind you of the way things used to be."

Alana looked up and sighed.

"You guys were practically my family. The thing is we've just lost the will to live. We haven't talked nearly as much as we used to ... I never realised I'd miss you so much. Before we were... we'd just go, just try."

"Shit. Alex, that's what I'm trying to do... I'm trying something new. I've tried stepping out of my comfort zone. I've tried meeting someone knew; doing something different. But it turns out it was your confort zone that I was stepping out of. Not mine."

"So sue me... I guess the good days are over."

"What? Who said these can't be good days?"

"They just can't... not with him getting in the way." I said gesturing my arm towards the door.

"The only one that's getting in the way is you, Alex." She let out a big sigh. "The irony is all you've ever wanted is for me to be happy. You've told me this countless times before. And now that I am... you have to go and ruin it... you're trying to save me from something that is harmless. Something that isn't even there. Well, great job Superman. Thanks for the help. Now you can go, fly away and please... don't come back."

"Alana..."

"Just go. Leave."

"Alana, I jus-"

"Go." She turned her head away and pointed towards the front door. "Get out," she choked, barely keeping herself together.

I grabbed my coat off the hook and stormed out the front door. As soon as I'd shut the door I wanted to go back inside and wrap my arms around Alana. But I couldn't.

I couldn't walk up to her slowly and pull her closer to me, wrapping my arms around her. I couldn't surround her in a warm embrace and I couldn't feel the world around me melt away as she squeezed me back, neither of us wanting the moment to end.

All I could do was try and release my pent up emotions into the darkness. And even that was hard.

Wow. Okay... so it's been almost 3 months. Oops? Sorry :/
I actually found these last 2 chapters surprisingly hard to write, don't know why? I feel like I didn't get enough emotion out of Alex and Alana in this chapter... try and imagine for me??

But yeah, I'll try and get a move on. Xx