till the stars may part

dreams.

As Sirius slept, he dreamt, something uncommon for him.

In his dream, he was seven, huddled with regulus in the corner of his bedroom closet, regulus wad clinging to sirius' shirt collar and crying

"shhh, its okay reggie its not your fault, Bellatrix bumped your arm" Sirius whispered to regulus,

"siri I didn't mean to" regulus sobbed

"I know, but mother and father don't, we need to hide right now but everything will be okay tomorrow." Sirius promised,

Then he fell through the floor, he tried to keep regulus in his arms, but he couldn't, "don't leave the closet" he tried to yell, remembering how regulus had looked crumpled on his bedroom floor at his mothers feet. But he couldn't his voice wouldn't work.

Now he was ten, curled up on his bed sobbing into his knees, his arms were bloody with long thin gashes down his forarms,

"siri?" regulus opened the door to sirius' bedroom slowly, with a plate of food in one hand,
"momma wanted me to give you this" he mumbled

Sirus looked up, trying to hide his arms,

"she said she didn't want to hurt you, but you needed to learn your lesson-" regulus whispered, he was on his tiptoes, trying to make as little noise as possible, in fear of his parents getting mad at the sound.

Then Sirius fell again, now he was on the train,

"that's one of the pure bloods I was telling you about-"

Then he woke up,

James was standing over him smiling

"wake up sleeping beauty" james grinned, shaking sirius' shoulder,

"mmmm, no." Sirius grumbled rolling over.

Once Sirius was awake, he made his way down to the great hall to eat.

He had just sat down when james looked up from his owly o's

"post's here." He said with a mouth full of cereal,

"crap." Sirius grumbled as he saw his mother's black owl carrying an angry red letter, Sirius quickly snatched the owl out of the air and took the letter from it, and sprinted out of the great hall.
he kept running until he saw a broom closet which he shut himself into.

The letter chose that moment to start screaming

"SIRIUS ORION BLACK, I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE ASHAMED TO CALL YOU MY SON! HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO DISSAPOINT ME WITH EVERY THING YOU DO! I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE ON THIN ICE!
I WILL NOT HESITATE TO DISOWN YOU LIKE YOUR AUNT DISOWNED ANDROMEDA! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!" the letter screeched in his mothers voice, than added "DO NOT SEND ANYTHING TO REGULUS." Before tearing itself into shreds.

Sirius sat down against the back wall of the closet, "I knew that this would happed" he whispered to himself,
he heared a bang from outside, then a string of curses, Sirius poked his head out of the door and saw remus lupin getting up from the ground, muttering to himself.

"you okay lupin?" Sirius asked, remus looked up as though he had gotten caught,
"yeah, im fine," he nodded as he stood up, "I didn't mean to eaves drop, i- I was just walking by and I heard-"

"yer' fine lupin, that's the point of a howler, to embarrass the person" Sirius shrugged "just don't- don't tell james, or pettegrew, they- I don't think they really get my family-"

"I can tell," remus nodded, pushing Sirius back into the closet and coming with, he then pulled Sirius down to sit, "my- my parents were good to me, but their dead, they died when I was five, I got bounced around the foster system with my older sister for a while till she turned 18, I know what the abusive family thing feels like,"

"is that where your scars are from" Sirius mumbled, they had to be very close because of the tight closet space, they were almost ontop of each other,

"well-"

"my parents are the same," Sirius rolled up one of his sleeves, showing lots of pale white scars, each the same length and width, going up and down his arm.

Than remus did something unexpected,
he hugged Sirius, he held him for what felt like seconds and hours at the same time,

"im so, so sorry Sirius black."