leah williamson x y/n - one shots

rehab

Leah's POV

All I wanted to do was play football, but playing football was the one thing I wasn't allowed to do. Being away from what I love most was breaking me, but I was determined to stick with it and get back on track as soon as possible.

I got out of bed and got dressed pretty early. I was getting ready to head to rehab for another day of graft to get better. I had a streak going of 23 days of rehab, and despite being so exhausted, I refused to stop. I went downstairs to put my trainers on and stretch a bit before heading out.

"Are you going to rehab again?" I heard Mum ask as she walked into the living room. I turned around to see a stern look on her face.

"Yeah why?" I replied.

"Leah this is getting ridiculous, you've not had a break in weeks! You're going to damage yourself further." Mum raised her voice at me.

Going to rehab every day was what was keeping me going. This injury was seriously damaging my mental health, and all I needed was a sense of normality; going to rehab daily and working out, getting my strength back.

"Mum you don't understand," I tried to explain. "It's helping me get better and stronger, that's the whole point."

"Yes I know that, but you need to take breaks, which you have not been doing. You're being consumed by it and that's not going to make things any better for you!" Mum replied, her shouting causing me to tremble.

"Why are you suddenly being so unsupportive Mum? I'm trying to get myself better and all of a sudden you've gone from the best support system I have to being my worst enemy. What am I doing wrong?" I asked, tears beginning to form in my eyes.

"You're the one who is overdoing it Leah! Doing rehab every single day is not going to help you! I am supporting you the best I can, you're the one being ignorant all the time! Expecting everyone to do everything for you constantly, being so useless, I don't know what else to do with you, I've done everything and all you do is push me away, and now you're going out to rehab every single day, making yourself so much worse, and then when you do hurt yourself more I guarantee you'll blame me for it! You are so unbelievably stupid, Leah. I hope you know that." Mum ranted, before storming into the kitchen and slamming the door.

I stood there frozen for a second. What the hell just happened? Mum had never lashed out at me like that before. I broke down on the spot and cried into my hands, when I suddenly felt a pair of gentle arms wrap around my waist.

"What is it?" I heard Jacob whisper. I turned around to face him and looked up at him.

"Mum shouted at me for absolutely no reason, she called me stupid and useless but it's not like I can do much anyway right now." I sobbed into Jacob's chest.

"What the fuck, Leah I promise you are none of these things okay? You're doing your best and that's what matters." Jacob said, fuming.

"I'm going to go and see Y/N, don't tell Mum though please, she doesn't deserve to know." I said, wiping my eyes and running upstairs to grab my bag and jacket, before walking out the door and over to my car.

I drove to Y/N's house as I knew she'd be able to cheer me up. I texted her letting her know I was coming and headed straight over, my eyes blurring up again while I was driving, because all I could hear in my head was what my Mum said to me.

Y/N's POV

I received a text from Leah saying she was on her way. I knew deep down something was wrong, so I quickly tidied my living room to make it look more cosy, and got some blankets to lay out on the sofa, before waiting for Leah to arrive. I saw her car pull into the drive and I instantly went to open the door, however I was met with an exhausted Leah, her cheeks bright red and her eyes bloodshot from crying. I let her in and closed the door, before hugging her tight and letting her cry it all out.

Eventually I took Leah into the living room and sat her down on the sofa.

"Right Leah, what's happened?" I asked after a few moments of silence.

"Mum had a go at me." she replied.

"What? Why?" I asked, confused as it was nothing like Amanda to shout at Leah.

"Told me to stop going to rehab every day as I will hurt myself more, but then started calling me stupid, useless, lazy etc even though I literally can hardly do anything. She's completely forgotten how much this injury has affected my mental health, I don't know how much more I can take." Leah sobbed.

My heart broke for her. I knew how much she was struggling, and all I wanted was to take her pain away from her, but seeing her this upset broke me the most. I hugged her close while she cried, her sniffles turning to heart wrenching sobs.

"Leah you are doing amazing, okay? Absolutely smashing it, and before you know it you'll be back on the pitch with us, yeah?" I reassured her.

"I don't know Y/N, I just don't feel like I'll be as good as I was when I get back and I feel like everything I've worked for my whole life was pointless thanks to Mum's sly comments." Leah cried.

"Oh Leah no, that's not true at all my angel," I said. "You are incredible. You're England's skipper, and one of the best players in Arsenal, there is no way your career will be over for a very long time. You will get through this I promise you."

Leah gave me a small smile, but that very quickly disappeared when her phone began to buzz.

"It's Mum." she said.

"What's she said?" I asked.

Leah showed me her phone, reading texts from Amanda.

"Leah where are you?"
"Answer me please."
"If you've gone to rehab again I swear to god!"
"Leah Cathrine Williamson, pick this phone up now."
*5 missed calls from Mum❤️*
"I'm coming to the rehab centre to find you, we need to talk."
"Leah, where are you?"
"What on earth are you playing at? I can't find you anywhere!"
*Missed call from Mum❤️*
"Darling, the receptionist said you've not been here today, are you okay? Please let me know you're safe, that's all I'm asking. I just need to know you're okay xx"

"I'm not answering." Leah said sternly.

"That's fine, you don't have to. Switch your phone off and we'll put a movie on." I said, taking Leah's phone from her and laying down on the sofa with her in my arms as we watched "Mamma Mia 2". Not long into the film, Leah fell asleep. Whilst she was sleeping, I messaged Amanda from my phone.

"Hi Amanda, just letting you know Leah is with me. She's okay, just very tired and very upset, but she's been watching a movie with me and has fallen asleep. I might take her out later on for some food if she feels up for it but I just wanted you to know she was safe x"

It wasn't long until I got a message back.

"Oh thank goodness Y/N, thank you so much for taking her in my darling. I don't know what was going through my head this morning, I sat and thought about everything and realised that Leah is just so consumed by rehab because it distracts her from the reality. I'm thinking she may benefit from speaking to a therapist again. What do you think? Keep me updated on how she is and hopefully i'll see you both later x"

I told Amanda that therapy would be a good idea, I was just glad she had understood what Leah was thinking about and was able to explain that. I responded to Amanda and put my phone down, continuing to watch the film myself before I quickly joined Leah in dreamland.