Your love.

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Kodie pov

It's been over a month and I'm still out on tour. Some dates of the tour were cancelled and rescheduled and these last two weeks I haven't had time to talk to my baby. Shes going to kill me. I missed her grand opening and everything. I'm just all over the place right now with shows interviews, and guest appearances and hostings. I'm grateful for it all. My brand is expanding and I'm getting out there and the people love me, but I have important people who care about me who are getting caught in the crossfire. And I know I have some making up to do. This was my last week of the tour, I had planned on going to Houston as I said originally, so that's what I'm gonna do....

Rae pov

Things have calmed down on my end and not to complain, I am very grateful for these blessings and opportunities. It just took so much out of me. Mentally and physically. Although my grand opening was amazing and business was quickly expanding , I needed a break. I missed Kodie more than ever. I thought about her every single day. But she's been so busy that she hasn't been returning my calls or text. On one hand I'm happy that her career is growing , but on the other I'm upset and just a tad bit worried. Her ghosting me feels all to familiar. But with her career I'm trying to give her the benefit of the doubt. At least have the common courtesy to say something or even let me know you're ok. But I try not to think too much of it and I just keep telling myself she's busy. Today was Friday and my business is closed on weekends, and this weekend I don't plan on leaving this house. I already bought food and snacks ima binge watch me some tv and relax. Because it's definitely needed.

I was feeling in the mood to cook so that's what I did. I took out some eggs, bacon and sausage some pancake mix and malt-o-meal. I'm cooking all this food just to be eating alone. I began to cook and I had my music playing, I even made me a mimosa. I was feeling great.

"Loovvveeeee! Never knew what I was missing, but I knew once we start kissing I fouuuunnndddd, found youuu!" I sang my heart out.

"I found youuuu!" A voice sang behind me scaring the shit out of me. I quickly spun around seeing Kodie standing there. A part of me was so damn happy to see her I just wanted to run into her arms. And then there's the part of me that's pissed......leading with that side I turn my back to her ignoring as I continue to cook.

"Rae..." she calls out. I could feel her staring a hole into the back of my head

"Baby I know you know how my lifestyle can be, I wasn't purposely ignoring you."

"Oh so you did see the calls and messages?"

"Yes but you know-"

"What am I still not worth your time? Am I still not important to you?!" I yelled. Everything that I had been feeling this past month just came pouring out of me.

"You are the most important thing in my life right now Rae! But my career-"

"It's common decency k, all it takes is a simple text letting me know you're ok. I knew what I signed up for, I know how demanding your career is, but so is mine! And yet I still found myself calling you in between 5 minute lunch breaks or after an 12 hour plus shift just to hear your voice before I go to bed. All for it to just be ignored..."

"Baby I didn't-"

"I didn't know what to think or feel. At one point I figured you had left me again. Maybe you thought all of this, the distance, our careers hell or me. Maybe you thought all of this was just too much for you at such a high point in your career."

"How could you think that?"

"You've done it before! I don't know what to think!"

"I don't know what I need to do to get it through your thick ass skull, I love you Rae. No matter the time no matter the distance my love for you grows every single day! I love you so much it hurts for me to be away. You think I wasn't thinking of you at every second? I'll take full responsibility for the lack of communication but don't think less of me because of that. I was going through so much when I first fell for you and you know that. But I won't hate myself for what I did to get better! And neither should you!"

"I'm not-"

"Let me finish! I love you. I got better for you. For us. There's no way in hell I'm ever leaving you again. I promise you that. I understand that me doing that hurt you and left you in the dark for years but you have to let that hurt go. You have too let those fears go. I know it won't happen overnight but I promise you im here. I'll be here every step of the way. Whatever it is that you need for me to do to prove to you that I'm here , right here in this together with you. I'll do it. " grabbing me by my waist she rested her hand on my cheek kissing me deeply

"I'll do whatever you want....tell me what you want Rae...." She said as she trailed down to my neck pulling me closer.

"I want..." I tried to speak

"What do you want baby? Tell me.." her hand found its way into my shorts. Her fingertips ran across my clit causing my breathing to hitch.

"God I've missed you so much." She says sliding two fingers into me. Moaning softly in her ear my back ends up hitting the counter and in one swift moment I'm on it.

"Let me make it up to you..." not much was said from that point on my moans filled the room as I cried for more...