A Girl Worth a Thousand Words (Kita X Male Reader)

The Camping Trip Part 3

"Suzuki-chan, you're not just a friend to me. I like you. And because of that, I don't want you to go..."

Stay with me.

I bury my face in my knees. The number one person I care about is leaving. The opportunity of being her girlfriend is over.

"Y/N... you... like me?"

I bring my head up to see her face beet red. She had her hands covering her face and seemed to be in complete shock.

"Yes. Ever since our last year of middle school... I wanted to keep it to myself, but I can't. I want to be with you. Kita's tried helping but it all ended in failure."

I'm sorry Kita.

"I... I don't know what to say..."

"It's fine. It's not like I'm expecting an answer anyway. I know you don't like me. I just want you to know how I think of you."

"Oh Y/N..."

I put my face to my knees again and I feel her hand patting my head.

"That's very sweet of you Y/N. But I'm... not the one for you. I'm sure you'll find someone else... out there."

"Don't say those things..."

"I... You're making me feel awful now. I'm sorry... this is all happening so fast. You'll always be my buddy. No matter what happens I'll always be by your side. And I care for you deeply. But I only... love you as a friend."

"Ah..."

So this is how it feels to love someone I'll never be with. Rejection. It feels like being stabbed in the chest over and over and over and over again. I get up and smile, trying to hide the pain. Suzuki looks at me and smiles trying to reassure me.

"I'm still going to be here till the end of the year. I still have time! Don't worry."

"... I'm going to bed..."

"Okay..."

At that moment I walked away in silence leaving her by the river alone. Walking back to the tent felt like the longest walk of my life. Throughout the walk back I constantly took deep breaths trying to hold back the tears as much as possible. I felt like I was going to burst at any moment.

Part of me wants to let it all out and cry my eyes out, but at the same time, I don't want anyone to see me like this.

Why am I sad about this?

She's just moving. It's not like we'll never see each other again. Maybe I'm sad over getting rejected. But people say rejection is normal and that you're gonna go through it a lot. Is this how it's always supposed to feel? There's no way Zenki's gone through this over and over again. Maybe I just feel horrible that she's leaving and that she rejected me on top of that.

Fuck me.

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"Hey! You alive?"

"Mmmm..."

I slowly open my eyes to see a man with black eyes and spiky blonde hair.

"Wake up man. You overslept."

I sit up to see myself in the tent I was sleeping in last night. Instantly the memories of last night all come back to me and I feel the stabbing in my chest again. I rub my eyes to see Zenki.

"What time is it?"

"I dunno. But I think it's time for you to get up. Suzuki-chan was concerned."

"Suzuki-chan..."