My Story

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low ... don't wanna get up, get going, too tired, u hugged, unloved, unseen, haven't showered all week

Little bit higher, Good traffic, Good communication with David, COFFEE!!!

low ... work doesn't need me, too many associates and not enough customers, thoughts creeping in, don't wanna be here, so alone, valentines all over, no one for me, no one sees

be kind to yourself is the quietest whisper in the chaos of alone

Little bit higher... Being sought out and found, By people who know me, Who know the hurt, And try to get me to let it out, To cheer me up...

work will never see, customers never will fully understand the burdens i bear, the fears and doubts that drag me down.

trying to drown it out with music lyrics to ignore the ache and the tears until i can deal with them in my own way, my own time

trying not to fall apart in public, because my burdens aren't anyone else's business, and i shouldn't throw it on them if i don't think they have a solution.

so i just try to write it out, put it into words, pour it out til i'm emptied out, and maybe, just maybe, i can make it without a mess of a meltdown... maybe i can make it through today, and the next day, at least pretending that it's all good, and i'm just my normal tired self...