My Story

I need a hug today

I need a hug today.

I need to physically feel that I am treasured, valued ... loved.

Right now, I feel drained, stressed out, empty ... & I don't like it.

Coronavirus, Covid-19, Rona, whatever you want to call it, has been running rampant for months now, & while I am following proper precautions, they are leaving me feeling super isolated.

I'm used to being lonely or feeling alone, even in a crowd, but this is a whole different level of separation.

It hit hardest today, when my manager asked me to work on Sunday, during church time, during Mother's Day. I'm blessed to still have my mother alive & close by ... I was gonna celebrate with her this year ... & now I don't even get that ...

Hope seems further & further away of this virus coming to a quick end ... days seem to be getting darker, less happy. It's harder to find joy in even the little things, because they are such fleeting moments.

I have a friend getting married in less than 2 weeks. Normally, I'd be frantically dress shopping trying to find something appropriate to wear ... with the dress shops still closed, it looks like I'll be using a dress I've worn before ... I'm afraid I don't have much to choose from in that department ... plus, yay, face mask or no? Gloves or no?

& the next day is when church services are happening again in person. I'm torn between going, just to see folks, wave @ them, & small talk, or hug everyone in sight, or hide in the back & just cry cause I miss them all so much ...

I need a hug to remind me to be kind & loving, instead of harsh, sharp, & short tempered.