Let's Be Lowkey Mr. Mayor

Chapter 21

KHYLER DELGADO
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"HINDI mo ba talaga ako gusto?" muli akong napabuntong hininga dahil sa paulit-ulit niyang tanong.

Paakyat na sana ako papuntang 3rd floor pero hinarangan ako ni Beatrice.

"Yes" walang ganang sagot ko.

I know what she feels. And now that I am in this situation napapabuntong hininga nalang ako. Nakakasawa din pala marinig.

"Bakit? Anong mali sakin? Maganda naman ako. I can give everything you want." Hindi ikaw ang gusto ko. Iyon ang mali sayo.

Syempre hindi ko yon sinabi hinayaan ko nalang muna siyang magsalita.

"Bakit? Anong nagustuhan mo sa kaniya? Sino siya para magustuhan mo at hindi ako ang pinili mo? I've always been with you since I transferred here."  I pity her. It's not because I don't have the answer, it's because I can't GIVE her the answer.

"Who's the guy, huh? Tell me!" muli akong napabuntong hininga ng sumigaw na siya. Pasimple akong tumingin sa paligid mabuti na lang at maaga pa.

"Why can't you like me? Lalaki ka din naman ah. I know and understand well enough that you are attracted with men but I'm sure there's a part of you that also wants women. Nakikita ko kung paano mo tignan si Wendell before, and now I see you look at Ms. Ramirez, you are attracted to her. Bakit? Why can't you stare at me the same way?" sa sinabi niya ay hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong sumagot pa.

"How can I? How can I like you if you're the reason kung bakit nalaman ng parents ni Wendell ang sexuality niya?" Bakas ang gulat sa mga mata niya at tila natigilan.
"I know everything Beatrice." Yes, it was her. Yong kapit-bahay nila Wendell na nagsumbong sa kaniya. I saw her there few days after ko mabalitaan yong nangyari. I went there to visit Kurt pero they won't allow me to enter their home.

Pinakita lang sakin ni Kurt ang bahay nila Beatrice through video call. Iyon na din ang huli.

"Hindi ko naman alam na ganon ang kalalabasan ng ginawa ko"

"Pero yon yong nangyari. I know it's hard for you to accept this. But please stop." I don't know why but my tears suddenly came down from my eyes.

"Don't do this. Ilaan mo nalang sa iba yang nararamdaman mo para sakin. Kasi wala kang mapapala. I like someone. When you find the right one, you will understand me. That no matter how many people likes you romantically your eyes will always settle and stay to that someone who you like...and that's not me." saad ko.

"All guys are cheating! Akala mo malinis sya?! It would be either lokohin mo SIYA o IKAW ang lolokohin NIYA!."

"That's not gonna happen." may kumpyansang saad ko.

"How sure are you? tell me who it is, so I can show you. Is it Erick? Zian has a girlfriend already. Is it Glenn? Is it Raymond? Who is it?!."

"Why do keep on asking me?!" napataas ang boses ko. Unti-unti ng nawawala ang pasensya ko sa kanya.

"Kasi hindi ko matanggap! I can't accept the fact that someone already has your heart when I was already a perfect match for you!"

I scoff at what I heard.

"Tell me who it is! Is it a woman?! Sumagot ka!" malakas na sigaw niya kaya hindi ko narin napigilan ang sarili kong sumagot.

"Oo!! It's a woman and so?!" pagsagot ko sa kanya.
"Bakit hindi ikaw? Why would I choose you? Yes, you have everything! Money, face, body. But who cares? If I can't even see it?"